*****TRIGGER WARNING MST****** MY ATTACK

Srmajah

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It was late fall of 87 and in the navy on a carrier from Norfolk Va we were on a 6 week cruise and on nightcrew I'm tired and ready to hit the shower I try to be the last one in for I'm really conscientious about myself I'm shampooing my hair when I somebody shoves their fingers in my eyes full of soap I'm screaming and then I was pushed down landing on my stomach I was picked up by my waist to my hands and knees someone was stepping on my hands so I couldn't move I heard that ya we got some fresh meat here were going to have us some fun I froze unable to move I felt immense pain as he stabbed me from behind, I started to scream and was orally penetrated . there were four of them, as each one finished they left laughing I lay there in a pool of blood and bodily fluids I was numb and in a daze, I woke up in my rack.with my good friend who found me standing guard, we both were going to make a career out of the navy back then you just dont say something like this has happened you would be ultimately discharged so I repressed it for 29 yrs now I'm reliving my gang rape almost every day I've been through the VA for counseling and medication I've been awarded 50% disability for ptsd/mst they say I'm cured my life if a living hell I cant keep a job my wife and I dont hook up anymore my anxiety attacks during the day and the night terrors keep me on edge all the time now I'm questioning my sexuality WHEN WHEN WILL THIS SHIT STOP
 
I am SO sorry you went through this, and I understand because the same thing happened to me in 1976 in the Philippines. What happened to you was pure evil. And I get the struggles you are facing. Sounds like you need to go back to the VA and insist on some more therapy. It is available. And if they give you any shit, go to your congressperson. That is what I had to do. Are you on any anti-anxiety meds? Also, there is medication for the nightmares, which I take. Keep talking here. We are here for you!
 

Srmajah

Registrant
I am SO sorry you went through this, and I understand because the same thing happened to me in 1976 in the Philippines. What happened to you was pure evil. And I get the struggles you are facing. Sounds like you need to go back to the VA and insist on some more therapy. It is available. And if they give you any shit, go to your congressperson. That is what I had to do. Are you on any anti-anxiety meds? Also, there is medication for the nightmares, which I take. Keep talking here. We are here for you!
Thank you I am not currently on medication for nightmares although I will be here soon all I have is antidepressants thank you for reaching out to me I did not realize that raping other men was such a thing it is really unfortunate that we have to be here but I am glad there's some place that us men can go to that's just for us I tried doing the me-too movement and I got backlash from that as far as the VA goes I am constantly up there seeking counseling whether it's a group or individual
 
Rape and gang rape are so common I am sorry for your experiences. I started a new medication for Night Terrors called Prazosin. It is a medication to lower blood pressure being use off label for Night Terrors and other PTSD symptoms.

Take good care
 

Tom E.

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It's monstrous that this kind of thing can happen in our armed forces. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I always thought it was like a "band of brothers" atmosphere but it clearly was not. No excuse for this terrible abuse. It angers me. I wish those guys were in prison.
 
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