Touching base
Grunty1967b
Registrant
Hi all,
I just wanted to touch base and let you all know that I am still around however I am still going through a rough patch at the moment. Its kind of crazy good.
Ive begun seeing more impact that my abuse and my upbringing had on me and so Im getting triggered and upset at lots of things that I was oblivious to before. For some reason things normally hit me in the morning. Maybe Im rethinking about the previous day or about the upcoming day but I often find myself spacing out in the shower. I can just stand their under the hot water for 10 minutes. My wife made a comment the other day about how I seemed to be taking my time getting ready for work some days. If she only knew!
Well, she does but I dont always divulge whats going in straight away. I think I need some space to work through my [newly found] emotions before I can speak to anybody about issues. At least Im giving myself permission and space to do that. Thats new for me also.
So, I am logging in and reading posts as I can and responding less but I wanted to reiterate that I so much value my friends here at MS and just because I may not be seen on the boards every day it doesnt mean I place a lesser value on my contribution and involvement here.
Thankyou all for being you and being here.
I just wanted to touch base and let you all know that I am still around however I am still going through a rough patch at the moment. Its kind of crazy good.
Ive begun seeing more impact that my abuse and my upbringing had on me and so Im getting triggered and upset at lots of things that I was oblivious to before. For some reason things normally hit me in the morning. Maybe Im rethinking about the previous day or about the upcoming day but I often find myself spacing out in the shower. I can just stand their under the hot water for 10 minutes. My wife made a comment the other day about how I seemed to be taking my time getting ready for work some days. If she only knew!
Well, she does but I dont always divulge whats going in straight away. I think I need some space to work through my [newly found] emotions before I can speak to anybody about issues. At least Im giving myself permission and space to do that. Thats new for me also.
So, I am logging in and reading posts as I can and responding less but I wanted to reiterate that I so much value my friends here at MS and just because I may not be seen on the boards every day it doesnt mean I place a lesser value on my contribution and involvement here.
Thankyou all for being you and being here.