Torment
To say that the scared boy or person that this happened to years ago wrote this would be a lie . Because of the constant torture of my sole by the demons has caused me to become two different people . The scared boy and the person I'm today . But because of the constant torture of my sole and being by those demons the person I'm today has in a sense became the same person I left behind years ago . The scared boy . And if I could have sex . Which I can't . I wouldn't because it would be the rape of Eric again . To say I'm better today than I was back then would be a lie . I've begin realizing that I'll never be completely better . And I will probably always have flash backs and night terrors and constant reminders off the past to torment me and my sole and Eric . And because of this the person I'm today fills the same pain and suffers the same depression and anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder and sees those demons just as strong now as back then . And they have become mine again . And maybe I've become the scared boy again . But then again I'm constantly flipping back and forth . So maybe their is a third person . I don't no . And i don't want to now . But if telling Eric's story helps him or me . Or helps someone have the courage to come forward for help before it's to late and the same thing happens to them . I can only hope they can find the courage to do so . To let something fester and grow stronger and torture your sole only makes it grow stronger . And creates more problems . Down the rode . In correlation to my survivor story . LOVE and RESPECT , ALLWAYS !!! ERIC and ERIC 2