To anyone considering something rash...
crisispoint
Registrant
Hi, all,
Found a posting here yesterday, and got a PM, from someone here who means the world to me. It sounded like he was going to harm himself.
To him (and you know who you are, silent one, in case you come back here looking for some hope!), and anyone else who feels like doing this, I'll repeat what I said when this happened to me the first time. Get help!
No, we're not psychologists, professional therapists, or whatever, but we've been through what you're going through. I'M going through that right now. Many times in recent weeks, I just wanted to die and was flirting again with doing myself in. Every time that thought entered my head, I remembered how many people I'd be huting through this one stupid, selfish act. I reflected on how I'd be giving the f**king abusers THEIR victory, how I'd be proving what they said about me was RIGHT. Damned if I'm going to hurt the people I care about and damned if I'm going to validate the lies they told me.
If you could only see the people who cared about you, if you could only know how much you'd be hurting them. And how much you'd be cheating yourself, really, because the bad times never last. Yes, that goes for the good times too, but the bad times never last. Death is so permanent, and problems are so temporary.
If you don't have anyone you can talk to, go to an emergency room and get help. They will help you. Call your therapists, they will help you. Call SOMEONE who can help you and give you hope.
Don't give up on hope. There are days when there doesn't seem to be any (BOY do I know about that!), but the quest can be the important thing. The quest can SUPPLY hope. Every sunrise you see is validation of hope.
Please, my friends, get yourself some help if you feel this desperate. We NEED you here.
Thanks for listening. I hope it helps.
Scot
Found a posting here yesterday, and got a PM, from someone here who means the world to me. It sounded like he was going to harm himself.
To him (and you know who you are, silent one, in case you come back here looking for some hope!), and anyone else who feels like doing this, I'll repeat what I said when this happened to me the first time. Get help!
No, we're not psychologists, professional therapists, or whatever, but we've been through what you're going through. I'M going through that right now. Many times in recent weeks, I just wanted to die and was flirting again with doing myself in. Every time that thought entered my head, I remembered how many people I'd be huting through this one stupid, selfish act. I reflected on how I'd be giving the f**king abusers THEIR victory, how I'd be proving what they said about me was RIGHT. Damned if I'm going to hurt the people I care about and damned if I'm going to validate the lies they told me.
If you could only see the people who cared about you, if you could only know how much you'd be hurting them. And how much you'd be cheating yourself, really, because the bad times never last. Yes, that goes for the good times too, but the bad times never last. Death is so permanent, and problems are so temporary.
If you don't have anyone you can talk to, go to an emergency room and get help. They will help you. Call your therapists, they will help you. Call SOMEONE who can help you and give you hope.
Don't give up on hope. There are days when there doesn't seem to be any (BOY do I know about that!), but the quest can be the important thing. The quest can SUPPLY hope. Every sunrise you see is validation of hope.
Please, my friends, get yourself some help if you feel this desperate. We NEED you here.
Thanks for listening. I hope it helps.
Scot