This is to Chase and for every Child. Possible triggers
kaceechase
Registrant
Chase is the 10yo child that is still struggling to find peace inside a 40yo body. Chase descided to voice his views today so I will do the same. Firs t thank you all who read His Shit and cared enough to try to help. It will get through someday. It is not wasted energy it is important.
This is Why a child should never be abused in any way, physically, mentally or sexually. A Child believes in santa Cluase. A Child sees Santa on TV and believes and Knows He is Real. A Child thinks His World is the Street That He Lives on or the House he lives in and that Nothing else exist but that world. A Child believes in the impossible and knows the Imagined is real. A Child Knows With out doubt that What he thinks is real is real and does not question that.
Now see it from that point of view. ANY ABUSE whether real or imagined or small or large or many or few IS REAL TO THAT CHILD. Just as real as Santa is. So when a Child is touched it is not just a touch it is so much more. When a child is forgotten and left behind and sold and raped and anything else that can be done to a child IT IS REAL. AS REAL AS SANTA IS REAL TO A CHILD.
Then this abuse some actual and some imagined and some created in our souls. DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND I AM NOT SAYING WE MADE IT UP.
I AM SAYING THAT WE ADD SO MUCH MORE ON TOP OF THE MORE THAN EVIL SHIT THAT WAS DONE TO US BY IMAGINING WHY IT WAS DONE. WE ADD OUR OWN STORIES TO IT BY SAYING WE MADE THEM DO IT OR THAT WE ARE BAD OR THAT WE DESERVED IT. WE THE CHILD THAT WAS SO INNOCENT AND CREATIVE AND LOVING AND WONDERFUL DID WHAT CHILDREN ARE SUPPOSE TO DO WE FILLED IN THE GAPS THAT SOMEONE DIDN'T FILL IN FOR US AND PROTECT US AND LOVE US ENOUGH TO TELL US THE REAL TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED.
THAT WE DID NOTHING WRONG. YOU CHASE DID NOTHING WRONG. YOU WERE NOT THE PROBLEM NOR WERE YOU THE CUASE. YOU WERE A CHILD THAT BELIEVED THAT BIG PEOPLE WERE GOOD AND LOVING AND KIND. YOU BELIEVE IN THE LIE THAT NO ONE CARED TO CORRECT IN YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
I LOVE YOU CHASE. AND I KNOW YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. AND I WILL MAKE IT MY LIFES WORK TO PROOVE THAT TO YOU. I AM YOUR FATHER AND YOUR MOTHER AND YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR BROTHER AND YOU!!!
I WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN EVER. I MAY MAKE MISTAKES BUT I WILL NOT LET THEM GO WITH OUT FINDING THE TRUTH OF THAT MISTAKE. I WILL NOT LET YOU BELIEVE A LIE EVER AGAIN. AND THOSE THAT FAILED YOU NOT THAT YOU FAILED THEM DONT DESERVE YOU. YOU DESERVE BETTER AND SHALL HAVE IT.
CHASE YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU EVEN WHEN YOU TRY TO PUSH ME AWAY AND HURT ME BECUASE YOU ARE AFRAID I WILL LEAVE YOU LIKE SO MANY HAVE. BUT I WONT HATE YOU AND I WONT STOP LOVING YOU AND I SAY THIS HERE FOR EVERYONE TO READ BECUASE I AM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU CHASE. YOU ARE ME AND I AM YOU AND YOU MADE ME TO PROTECT YOU SO THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING. RIGHT NOW I AM GOING TO PROTECT YOU FROM YOU BECUASE WITH OUT KNOWING YOU TOOK OVER FOR YOUT ABUSERS. YOU BECAME YOUR OWN WORSE ABUSER BECUASE THOSE SHITS TOLD YOU YOU DESERVE IT... YOU DONT...
I HOLD YOU AT NIGHT WHEN YOU CRY YOURSELF TO SLEEP--I HOLD YOU WHEN YOU SCREAM AT GOD FOR LEAVING YOU. I HOLD YOU WHEN YOU HIT ME AND ATTACK ME AND WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU TOO BUT I WONT NEVER WILL. YOU ARE TOO IMPORTANT TO ME AND I LOVE YOU .
SO CHASE YOU SAID WHAT YOU NEEDED TO SAY AND SO DID I. AND I AM STILL HERE FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE AND HEAR THAT I LOVE YOU AND SOMEDAY YOU WILL BELIEVE THIS TRUTH.
To everyone that reads this Know it was not for you but that if it helps you that is a bonus. I am glad. I do believe that this is true for so many so take what you want and pass it on. change the lies that a childs mind continues to only know as his world and for all who struggle with their own 10yo child, Peace and love to you all. Thank you for your support I hold this knowledge for Chase when he is able to hear it for himself. It is not wasted i assure you and we are staying. We are staying becuase I know it is the right place to be even with all the pain that comes from knowing. Chase will see it too soon. God Bless you all and yes I do Believe in God-I dont understand everything But I know there is something that keeps this all together and WE will all survive. all of us in our own time. Thank you and Goodnight.
This is Why a child should never be abused in any way, physically, mentally or sexually. A Child believes in santa Cluase. A Child sees Santa on TV and believes and Knows He is Real. A Child thinks His World is the Street That He Lives on or the House he lives in and that Nothing else exist but that world. A Child believes in the impossible and knows the Imagined is real. A Child Knows With out doubt that What he thinks is real is real and does not question that.
Now see it from that point of view. ANY ABUSE whether real or imagined or small or large or many or few IS REAL TO THAT CHILD. Just as real as Santa is. So when a Child is touched it is not just a touch it is so much more. When a child is forgotten and left behind and sold and raped and anything else that can be done to a child IT IS REAL. AS REAL AS SANTA IS REAL TO A CHILD.
Then this abuse some actual and some imagined and some created in our souls. DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND I AM NOT SAYING WE MADE IT UP.
I AM SAYING THAT WE ADD SO MUCH MORE ON TOP OF THE MORE THAN EVIL SHIT THAT WAS DONE TO US BY IMAGINING WHY IT WAS DONE. WE ADD OUR OWN STORIES TO IT BY SAYING WE MADE THEM DO IT OR THAT WE ARE BAD OR THAT WE DESERVED IT. WE THE CHILD THAT WAS SO INNOCENT AND CREATIVE AND LOVING AND WONDERFUL DID WHAT CHILDREN ARE SUPPOSE TO DO WE FILLED IN THE GAPS THAT SOMEONE DIDN'T FILL IN FOR US AND PROTECT US AND LOVE US ENOUGH TO TELL US THE REAL TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED.
THAT WE DID NOTHING WRONG. YOU CHASE DID NOTHING WRONG. YOU WERE NOT THE PROBLEM NOR WERE YOU THE CUASE. YOU WERE A CHILD THAT BELIEVED THAT BIG PEOPLE WERE GOOD AND LOVING AND KIND. YOU BELIEVE IN THE LIE THAT NO ONE CARED TO CORRECT IN YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
I LOVE YOU CHASE. AND I KNOW YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. AND I WILL MAKE IT MY LIFES WORK TO PROOVE THAT TO YOU. I AM YOUR FATHER AND YOUR MOTHER AND YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR BROTHER AND YOU!!!
I WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN EVER. I MAY MAKE MISTAKES BUT I WILL NOT LET THEM GO WITH OUT FINDING THE TRUTH OF THAT MISTAKE. I WILL NOT LET YOU BELIEVE A LIE EVER AGAIN. AND THOSE THAT FAILED YOU NOT THAT YOU FAILED THEM DONT DESERVE YOU. YOU DESERVE BETTER AND SHALL HAVE IT.
CHASE YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU EVEN WHEN YOU TRY TO PUSH ME AWAY AND HURT ME BECUASE YOU ARE AFRAID I WILL LEAVE YOU LIKE SO MANY HAVE. BUT I WONT HATE YOU AND I WONT STOP LOVING YOU AND I SAY THIS HERE FOR EVERYONE TO READ BECUASE I AM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU CHASE. YOU ARE ME AND I AM YOU AND YOU MADE ME TO PROTECT YOU SO THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING. RIGHT NOW I AM GOING TO PROTECT YOU FROM YOU BECUASE WITH OUT KNOWING YOU TOOK OVER FOR YOUT ABUSERS. YOU BECAME YOUR OWN WORSE ABUSER BECUASE THOSE SHITS TOLD YOU YOU DESERVE IT... YOU DONT...
I HOLD YOU AT NIGHT WHEN YOU CRY YOURSELF TO SLEEP--I HOLD YOU WHEN YOU SCREAM AT GOD FOR LEAVING YOU. I HOLD YOU WHEN YOU HIT ME AND ATTACK ME AND WANT ME TO LEAVE YOU TOO BUT I WONT NEVER WILL. YOU ARE TOO IMPORTANT TO ME AND I LOVE YOU .
SO CHASE YOU SAID WHAT YOU NEEDED TO SAY AND SO DID I. AND I AM STILL HERE FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE AND HEAR THAT I LOVE YOU AND SOMEDAY YOU WILL BELIEVE THIS TRUTH.
To everyone that reads this Know it was not for you but that if it helps you that is a bonus. I am glad. I do believe that this is true for so many so take what you want and pass it on. change the lies that a childs mind continues to only know as his world and for all who struggle with their own 10yo child, Peace and love to you all. Thank you for your support I hold this knowledge for Chase when he is able to hear it for himself. It is not wasted i assure you and we are staying. We are staying becuase I know it is the right place to be even with all the pain that comes from knowing. Chase will see it too soon. God Bless you all and yes I do Believe in God-I dont understand everything But I know there is something that keeps this all together and WE will all survive. all of us in our own time. Thank you and Goodnight.