This is scary

Guys,

I received an email from a brother here. It was apparently a response to something I sent to him expressing my mistrust.

I don't remember sending it. There is something vague in my mind that tells me it was about questioning why he was so good to me.

I have DID. But, I have always still been here when they came out. Until now.

Not only did one of them (Think it was Al) send the email, but it wasn't in my sent folder. I haven't a single memory of sending it. Much less deleting it from my sent folder. It's even gone from my trash folder.

Any insight on this?

Marc

 

[MikeNY]

Marc, you seemed to be full of a lot of rage recently. It could have been during what would be an anger blackout. Anger blackouts can be fairly common. I have known many people who have had them.

 

[Leosha]

Marc

I think maybe it depend on how your email is set up. For Yahoo mail or AOL, sent mail is saved automatically to a folder. For me, I mostly use my hotmail account, and it is not automatically saved unless I do something to choose that option. So maybe it wasn't matter of sending it, then deleting it and emptying trash. Maybe it was just sent then disappears. It depends on what kind mail you use (and I know there are many other mail services that I do not know at all about).

As to the DID, I think it can fluctuate some. I have friend with it, who he is conscious of 'them'. And he will have situation where he is aware that one of 'them' is one talking or doing things, not 'him'. Other times, things have happened that he has no recollection of at all. I am opposite. Other then hearing voices, which maybe is 'them', I do not have awareness of them at all. I will know when I have lost myself some, because I have feeling of waking back up to myself, coming back aware to myself. But I do not know 'who' I was or what I did unless someone else can tell me. But there have been times when I have felt I am looking from outside myself, of what I do. And not knowing what I am about to say or anything. So perhaps that is an 'awareness'.

I think there are different stresses that can make us more likely to act differently then we normally will, including with the DID. But of course, I'm not expert with any of it at all.

Leosha

 

[ak]

((((Marc))))

I am sorry. I do not have answer or anything good to say here. I just wanted you know I care of you, and hope you be ok.

andrei