this i don't know why
i feel like i have a connection with a chat person - don't know why - but at the same time i feel like telling him a lot of stuff - anyway - that's for some reason in my mind - it is so overwhelming - in a way - and yet i really want to tell somebody - my dreams never seemed like - it was never ok to go for any of it - or my desire i was the outsider and i wasn't entitles to have a personal life beyond the threat to my abusers or the reinforcers - i just wish someone were there who would say it was ok - you know?