Thinking of What if?
Brian76
Registrant
I find myself thinking of what might have been had I not been assaulted at 13. Where would my life be at this point now being 45 and a survivor? In an alternate reality where a stranger didn't take away that outgoing boy's innocence so many years ago. Would I be a successful man as opposed to the damaged, unmotivated being I have become? Would I have had children of my own? I know it is not healthy to hold regrets but I find it nearly impossible to think otherwise. The people I have hurt. The opportunities squandered. The anger and shame that festered for years freezing me with depression and anxiety that hindered my talents and ability to grow a fulfilling career. Am I alone with these regrets? Is there hope for us? Thanks for listening.