Thinking Huh!

[reality2k4]

I have been thinking big scale on some issues.

I suppose I am past my time of being here, and maybe i just need to regroup my thoughts, I really dont know.

Maybe I am hurting people here who need not be hurt by me.

Maybe, loads of things, and sometimes I dont know myself, I suppose why I stll come here, but I always think, where should I be?

I am always truly sorry if I hurt others here, and it is not my intention, and if you alert me then I will try and put it right.

My life was about being pushed about, and not really being me, and trying to discover myself, and yes, sometimes altercations do happen.

I am sorry for anybody that I might have hurt, and I mean it, but maybe I was right in some cases.

Somebody told me that I talk sh*t, and maybe they were spot on with their comment, and I guess that is right, because they would not say if they did not mean it.

I just dont have the fight to fight them, nor the strength, so I become the submissive me, and yes, that is maybe the key, to my world,

ste

 

[roadrunner]

Ste,

Sometimes yes, we do need to fall back and reagther our thoughts, but if you do that yourself I can assure you that you will not find that you are a hurting foece here in MS. Quite the opposite.

No, you do not talk s*it. You often raise issues that are very important and difficult to discuss in an open forum.

Take care,
Larry

 

[reality2k4]

I am getting to the point of "WTF".
Why bother.

I just hope I may be OK in this world.

OK, I have finished work and that hurts, but I blame it all on past events.

I have to blame my whole life on the past without a break.

I just want to be me now, I have finished work, I miss my friends there, but I just had to get out of it somehow.

I had to tell myself I was not weak in doing it, and to take some care of myself for just once in my life, and yeah, even though he hates being out of work, he has to be there now.

The little boy in me said enough is enough I suppose, I dunno,

ste