They're NOT "just memories!"

They're NOT "just memories!"
C

crisispoint

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For all the good things I hear about myself, and I tell other people, I just hear the morons today.

Yeah, they're memories, just memories, but Goddamn it, they're NEW to me. They just happened, and it's not something I can "get over" right now because they JUST HAPPENED. They are my reality NOW!

People mean Goddamn well when they say that, and it's true, but it's not true to me now! THEN is my "now!"

Grand. I'm not making sense. I don't care.

Grounding myself, so this will pass, but Goddamn it, no matter how good intentioned you are, don't tell me they're "just memories!"

:mad: :(

Scot
 
Scot: Feel better now? It is good to vent. When these things happen it is good to ground yourself in the present. We were not trying to treat them as merely memories but as something you must see to know precisely what you are trying to deal with and overcome. Nothing like trying to overcome a phantom. By the way that is the name of my cat. Has a mask like the one in the Opera.

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Scot,

Yes, they are just memories. Very real memories. Very vivid memories. Very much now memories. Just memories, but how they feel like they are happening now, especially since they are new memories.

You dont just get over them, you put in your hard work and get through them. And before you can work through them, you gotta remember them.

So theyre not just memories, they are the pieces of the puzzle that is your recovery.

Take care,
Bill

Did I just get included in the moron population? ;)
 
Bill
If you're included in the "moron population" then so am I.
I have nothing to add to your reply.....

Dave
 
No, you guys aren't "morons." I'm talking about the Goddamn COA.

But I don't "feel better." and yes, I'm venting, but it's not over and it ain't ending. It's NEVER over.

I was telling someone that I know what it's like to have to screw on my "game face" and get through the day like it's perfectly okay. When the rest of the world either treats you with the casual disregard of an aquaintance or some frigging flake who's good to talk to, but is a frigging nut.

It will get better, but it ain't better now. And it's well meaning, but it's hard to "work through it" when it's NOW.

And yes, being used as a sex-toy by someone who you thought LOVED you as a kid, and some sadistic piece of s**t who PAID for the priviledge to humiliate you to make THEM feel better is a LITTLE harder to swallor than everything else.

I'll be better, but not right now.

Scot
 
Scot

It will get better, but it ain't better now.
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One of the tings I am most grateful for is that nobody ever told me healing myself was going to easy, but they did tell me it was possible.

And for once I wasn't lied to, and I wont lie to you, "it will get better"

Dave
 
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