They don't call it PTSD for nothing
I had been unable to really attribute problems I have been having to my abuse but after reading this on WEBMD, I realized that these are parts of PTSD (Post Tramatic STRESS disorder) which most survivors have.
Effects of Stress
1. Become irritable and intolerant of even minor disturbances.
2. Feel irritated or frustrated, lose your temper more often, and yell at others for no reason.
3. Feel jumpy or exhausted all the time.
4. Find it hard to concentrate or focus on tasks.
5. Worry too much about insignificant things.
6. Doubt your ability to do things.
7. Imagine negative, worrisome, or terrifying scenes.
Effects of Stress
1. Become irritable and intolerant of even minor disturbances.
2. Feel irritated or frustrated, lose your temper more often, and yell at others for no reason.
3. Feel jumpy or exhausted all the time.
4. Find it hard to concentrate or focus on tasks.
5. Worry too much about insignificant things.
6. Doubt your ability to do things.
7. Imagine negative, worrisome, or terrifying scenes.