thanks so much man. im still trying to figure this site out and I missed all these super helpful comments.Once,
Don't feel like a failure, you are anything but. It takes bravery to face ourselves head on and especially in an EMDR environment where we lose control (e.g. meaning we have NO idea what is going to surface and or how we will react). Walking into this unknown is a true act of bravery! Hold your head high, I know someone who needs EMDR but because they have seem several of my reactions refuses to do it because they don't want to face themselves per se.
Its okay if you couldn't look him in the eye either/shake his hand. You had to care for yourself after your session. Self Care is the priority and if he's as great as you think, he totally gets it.
You were in an extremely vulnerable emotional state, its normal. I'm actually impressed that you can share/show this vulnerability in front of your therapist. Take the win! I don't ever have these moments until I'm back home. There have been times my wife has found me curled up in a ball in a closet hysterical as a result of EMDR, the emotional flooding just being too great. You've got this!
That’s what my T does. He says it’s really helpful. I should try that. Thanks for the advice!I began running for the health benefits. I now run 3 times a week (3 miles) for the emotional benefits. It's peaceful to be quiet with my own thoughts on the streets when its dark and very few are up and moving. It's very therapeutic.
I try to gym at least 2 times a week. and exercise regularly during the day in my office. makes for interesting faces as coworkers walk by...“Big boys don’t cry” biggest most harmful thing my parents did to me. Well beyond abandoning me to the hands of their childhood friend, elder in our church and then the assistant scoutmaster because they were too busy.
Move and workout while you can some of us waited and soothed with food to the point at 60 I feel it with every step. Swimming did help though- time to get back in the pool...