The story of the invisible little boy

The story of the invisible little boy

jesse7

Registrant
*possible triggers*

This is an actual memory that I adapted into a short story using my inner child's imagination. Some phrases I emphasized for my own benefit since they seem to be messages coming from my unconscious mind.

Jesse

This story is about a little boy who learned the secret of becoming invisible. Before the little boy learned the secret, he would always walk with his head down and was afraid to look at others in their eyes. The clothes he wore was often very old and torn, and his hair was dull and messed up from not washing it. The other little boys often laughed at him because of this and they stayed away and thought he was strange. So the little boy spent a lot of time alone reading books and he would walk by himself at night and remember things--he always hated to remember. This is one of his stories...

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A long time ago a little boy was born. He was not wanted by his parents because his father had believed the little boy was the son of another man who had slept with the mother. The mother knew this wasn't true, but the father still refused to believe her. This was unknown to the child, and the little boy always trusted his parents in whatever they did. He loved his parents more than anything and he wanted to be like his father when he grew up.

As the little boy got older, he began to notice things that bothered him. One night he remembers, the father came home very late and the door to the house was already locked. Because the father could not come in, he became angry and started yelling for someone to open the door. No one wanted to open the door. They were all scared and frightened from the yelling. The father even knocked on the windows and the thumping made the little boy's body shake all over and he couldn't make it stop.

"Mommy, why is Daddy mad?" said the little boy. "He drank too much," answered the mother. The little boy became more afraid of what was about to happen. The knocking got louder and louder. And the little boy's body trembled even more. The father started screaming nasty things to the mother and ordered her to open the door.

The mother became afraid and began to cry. She still did not open the door. The father was now very angry and he started to kick the door. His screams got louder and louder--and nastier.

Finally, using all his strength the father broke down the door. The door came crashing to the ground and it broke in two pieces. The father then began walking very slowly over to the mother; he could not walk straight. He then told the mother that this was the last time she would ever do that to him again because he was going to kill her. The mother became terrified and screamed for help. Nobody heard except the little boy.

The little boy ran and cried out to his father: "Daddy, please don't kill Mommy!" But the father would not listen. He pushed the little boy out of the way and grabbed the mother. He then punched her in the face and took her by the shoulders using both hands and pushed her back and she fell on the floor. The mother was now laying on the floor and the father then sat on top of the mother's stomach to stop her from getting up and he began to punch her in the face over and over again. Her face was dripping red.

"You will never do that to me again! Do you hear me you stupid bitch!?" The mother could not talk. She was crying like the little boy. When the little boy saw what had happened, he became very sad and confused.

Why did Daddy hit Mommy? Why didn't Mommy just open the door? She left it closed and Daddy wanted to come in. It was my fault for not opening the door for Daddy to come in. The little boy then saw that the mother was silent. "Mommy, are you asleep?"

"Go to bed now!" commanded the mother. "But Mommy--" "Go to bed now or I'll tell Daddy to hit you too!" The little boy did not understand why he needed to go to bed, but because he was scared of the father he obeyed and left in tears.

The little boy could not sleep and he was shaking under his covers. Why did Mommy send me to bed? I must be bad. Daddy doesn't love me because I didn't open the door. Mommy doesn't love me because I don't listen to her after she fights with Daddy. I must be a very bad boy. One day I will be a good boy. They will see that I am a good boy and they won't have to fight anymore. I have to be a good little boy. I will try harder to be good.

But the little boy was never good enough. The father and mother still fought. So the boy just gave up one day.

I guess I'm just a bad little boy and there's nothing I can do about it. I'll hide from Daddy and Mommy instead and then they won't have to see me when I'm bad.

And so the little boy one day went searching and found a magic potion that allowed anyone who drank it to become invisible. The little boy had been looking for a way to hide so the father and the mother could not see that he was bad and he finally found the secret to do it. The little boy drank the potion and never again did the father and mother see him. And the little boy was amazed because whenever he was invisible he never saw the father and the mother fight.

So the little boy decided to remain invisible. And the other children never laughed at the little boy again because they could not see him. Life was so much better being invisible. It was so good the little boy decided to become invisible forever--he drank the whole potion so he would never have to go back again.

No one knows what happened to the little boy after that.

--From the memories of Little Jesse
 
Jesse,

that is a powerful piece you wrote, and it is very sad to know a little boy had to go through all that hurt.

Putting a child into a fearsome state is totally wrong. None of it was your fault, it was their fault and totally unforgivable.

You talk of trying to be better and somehow good, but you were good, you tried your hardest, but somehow nothing seemed to work.

The clothes he wore was often very old and torn, and his hair was dull and messed up from not washing it. The other little boys often laughed at him because of this and they stayed away and thought he was strange. So the little boy spent a lot of time alone reading books and he would walk by himself at night and remember things
I remember not caring of myself, and walking through the night trying to find answers to impossible questions.

There were no answers, the little boy was doing right all along, but when right seems to be wrong, it sure brings a whole load of confusion,

ste
 
Jesse,

I am so moved by your story. Hold onto Little Jesse and let him feel he is loved and safe now. No one can hurt him like that anymore. He has you to protect him.

Much love,
Larry
 
Ste and Larry,

Where were you guys when I was growing up? Why was I forced to wait twenty-nine years to find people who can understand? If only you both had gone to my school... :(

My older brother never consoled me. He probably couldn't anyway. In fact, my brother's reaction when he saw similar violence was to tell me to shut-up, to stop crying, and to grow-up already. I was deeply ashamed to be around him. I could never measure up to his expectations and I felt that a little sissy like me couldn't possibly be a man. My brother was always and still is my father's favorite son, especially now after all his financial success.

It wasn't until I became "book smart" that I finally won his respect (he isn't book smart) but by then our relationship had been severed for many years. He ultimately became the pragmatic mega-achiever and is now in real estate where he hopes to become a millionaire before he is forty. He offered me a job once because of my advanced math and computer skills, but I declined. We are so different we'd likely bore each other to death.

I'm sure glad you guys understand. But I have to admit that I'm still scared to death to trust even the ones who do understand.

Jesse
 
Originally posted by John Oarc:
I am glad you are here, it is great to have you.
Reading those words makes me want to cry...

Even my parents never said such beautiful words to me. They would tell me they loved me only after they had already beaten me. I bet it was because they could not stand seeing their little boy crying out in agony trying in vain to understand this cruel and unjust world. Is it any surprise that they were forced to shut me up?

"Shut-up! Stop crying! I'll give you something to cry about..."

And so it was until I was a teenager, then they would just emotionally abuse me. My father said this to me: "You're not my son that's why you never do as I say. You're just like that whore your mother. You know, she was fucking another man before you were born. You're not mine."

Even my mother was not the kindest: "I'm going to tell your father and he's going to beat the shit out of you! Why do you hate us so much? Why can't you just be like your brother? You only care for yourself you selfish bastard."

I have so many of these memories. It's hard to get rid of them but at least I'm on the right path now.

I'm glad I found you guys too.

Jesse
 
Jesse,

You are doing the right thing bro. Just keep talking and let all this crap out.

I hate to be the one to ruin the story by telling the ending, but here it is anyway. None of this was your fault. Your parents were wrong to treat you like that and they are a major reason for a lot of the feelings you have now.

As we talk about things and learn this basic and universal truth, we come to realize how important and lovable we really were - and still are. If others didn't see that and protect us, that isn't our fault either.

Much love,
Larry
 
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