The Office

[Grunty1967b]

Heres a little victory of me taking care of myself. My employer moved offices about 2 years ago into a refurbished office building. Everything that went in was new: desks, chairs, office partitions, network cabling the lot. I used to have my own office in our own building but for efficiencys sake most of us (me included) were placed in open cubicles. The layout of mine was predetermined but I always felt uncomfortable.

Today, I moved my desk! I was always sitting facing the partition with my back to the entry part of my section. Whenever anybody would come to my cubicle I wouldnt know they were there until they spoke. If they were quiet, they could stand there for hours behind me without me knowing. Not that Im trying to hide anything at work, but I came to realise I just didnt like people creeping up on me without me knowing. It made me feel vulnerable and THATS a feeling I dont like. Guess why? CSA!

So, I took the step. I didnt ask permission I just did it. Having said that Im in the top level of management anyway, but even if my boss questions it Im going to tell him Im not comfortable with people sneaking up behind me.

In my new seating position, I see people as soon as they enter my space. I actually feel more comfortable and more open to having people stop by my space now.

Heres to a surprising non-related yet related victory and progression on my recovery journey. Cheers!

 

[Kid A]

Its amazing how little things like that can make a huge difference. I'm also finally starting to realize that I can change my enviornment. I spent years enduring what I thought I deserved. I just finally realized that since springs were popping out of my bed it was time for a new bed. I'm still a little slow at saying, hey I'm cold I need a jacket, but I guess going from denial to self-awareness takes some time. I'm glad you found your new position. i think thats called feng shui or something and it really can make all the difference.

 

[Morning Star]

DEMANDING is such an important part of self love, and an expression of self worth - I deserve it that's why I ask for it.

That way I will never have to fight, because fight means I am not co-creating it for myself. I am simply struggling or fighting for it.

When I was a child I didn't get the love I wanted at my home, so I went out searching for it. Though I found it, I paid a heavy price for it, as abuse.

So I concluded that I don't deserve love, I just deserve abuse. I got confused, I thought when I ask for love I will get abused, so I stopped demanding and withdrew.

Now, on my way back, I am again looking for love, but I am looking for it, within me. That way I know I will never get misused.

For I know the best love I would ever get is from me.

I know life will give me more, if I remain thankful for what I have got. So that I am open to receive more.

 

[roadrunner]

Bruce,

It's great you took that initiative for the sake of being more comfortable in your "space". I think I would feel the same way.

If your employer comments you could just tell him that you feel you work more effectively when you can see who is approaching you and who is just passing by.

I like the way you put this: "me taking care of myself"

Much love,
Larry