The murder of a soul

[MarAl]

When a perp molests us, they murder the soul of the young boy. For their own sick pleasure, they leave an imprint that never leaves, no matter how much we recover. Because those memories will never leave completely.

We may recover that soul. But it is never the soul we had as children. Innocence taken away can never be reclaimed.

This is why I oppose statutes of limitation for child abuse. Because a life sentence has been handed to us. It is only fitting that it be handed to them, regardless of when it happened.

 

[Sterling]

i agree

 

[bluesky]

What was done to me and all abused children never goes away the scars and pain live on even years later . A continually struggle to live a normal life free of fear , depression, anxiety, multiple me’s, dread and the storms that rage in my mind and body. I never thought that I wouldn’t be able to fully recover but these days I am coming to terms that the pain and the effects will probably always be there like a congenital disease. I can only do the best I can with what I was given after the years of abuse I suffered.

Thank you for posting and I will try to keep my head up so you guys out hear try to do the same.

 

[Sterling]

You're a smart guy bluesky.
That insight will broaden your path.

 

[bluesky]

*****Triggers*****

Thanks for the compliment.

Coming to this realization does leave me feeling sad and angry. It is like a hole in my being (mind, body and soul) a part that never fits, a painting that never looks just right, a emptiness that is forever hungering for love and care, a Disney movie set cardboard thin, so nice and neat on the outside but all guts and grease on the inside. Like skin that cover our blood and guts. My smile and kindness covering my pain and past no one would guess what had happened to me. I’m successful, have a family even some friends but it’s all confusion. I should have died long a go but somewhere in side me I found the strength to fight my abuser the scissor raised above my head I pushed back. I fought myself to live every when I wanted to die. The fight has moved to a kind of acceptance that the war was fought and the grief is the aftermath of its destruction. It’s excepting the pain because there is no way it will ever go away and that’s how it will be, one day more one day less but always there in the back round of my mind.

 

[LinEar]

It just doesn't go away.

 

[KMCINVA]

MarAl

Your words are true "an imprint never leaves". I have come to believe the imprint can remain and we can create new and more positive imprints that can dominate our lives. I have people in my life who have imprinted love, kindness, non-judgement into my life by their actions. Peoples' actions leave an imprint on us--so surrounding myself with people who can leave a positive imprint helps to mitigate the negative imprint others left in my life.

My soul is healing and you are right we will never have the soul we had as it was taken, we were robbed of innocence and thrown into an adult world our minds could not handle. It created distorted views of sex, trust and love. In the end, love and kindness helps us to overcome these negative emotions--not an easy task.

I too believe statute of limitations should be ended immediately. The abusers deserve a sentence because the abuser and others who turned a blind eye, denied the abuse and did not support the survivor were both perpetrator, judge and jury in sentencing us to this sentence and extending it long after the abuse. I want to think of myself as the Supreme Court and I overturned the sentences they imposed.

Kevin

 

[Lenz]

Kevin,

You logic is excellent. I struggle with the concept of soul, and it is given the givens. I hate the idea that anyone other than a creator can mar or indeed kill a soul. At best trauma can inflict a kind of somatic death, and leave us unliving, or living only in relation to a passed soul, often ourselves. I am sometimes, and it takes a moment of meditation to arrive at this again, of a bigger sort than the simple souls of men.

The abuse I was afflicted by comes from religion, and that is why I object to the easy use of terms. My soul is now of a scale and strength even these servants of the Lord could not perceive.

The true church would build its way around such soul injuries.

Lenz

 

[JamesM]

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