The eternal child!
reality2k4
Registrant
We wonder how our boundaries are set not to trust ppl in life, but how could it not be!
If I let the little boy into the driving seat of life, its all, Hi son, OK son, but wtf, does it really show that much!
Then the women in your life seem to think you are still a little boy, and all those who surround you treat you as little boy.
My abuse brother is cool, he rearranges the furniture in my home twice a week, to how he thinks it should be, but everything is what he thinks it should be.
Imagine if I went and rearranged the furniture in his home!
He just likes to please my mother in all of this, but he is not pleasing me, so I rearrange it back the way it was before he came.
I run with so much guilt through my own abuse, because it caused so many problems in my family.
It caused my brother to mentally abuse me, and it also cause him to be abusive to my father which hurt me greatly.
My father constantly had to struggle with his remarks about him being a martyr, and skitting him when he was ill.
Finally, my father died riddled with cancer, my brother had broken down all our lives almost.
Can I ever forgive him for the hurt he put on my father, but should I forgive myself for causing it all by not being a strond kid?
I just let him abuse his father, and OK, he did have a bad time, but only because daddy always doted on the abused child, something he could never accept.
He broke down my confidence, he must have been an issue on my father dying so early, and now I have the guilt of not feeling strong to stop it.
He totally lost it when my father died, and he felt so guilty, and it was me who asked him to finally talk to him on his death bed.
He is beyond all of that now, and back to the old blame it all on me syndrome, but now I can fight him, and he knows and feels it.
Its not the abuse that does it, its all the other things it leads to, and I was watching a programme about Jack and Bobby.
Jack is about 17yo, and Bobby about 13yo.
Bobby was pretty much abused at school, and his brother never helped him, much like me.
Going one step further, my brother abused me at school in front of friends etc.
I was terrified of him then, like, hope I dont bump into him at school, or saying to new friends, hey I will meet you there, instead of just saying, hey lets go.
If I met my brother with a new friend, he would say things to wreck my new friendships.
This was so complex to be a kid with my loving brother around.
ste
If I let the little boy into the driving seat of life, its all, Hi son, OK son, but wtf, does it really show that much!
Then the women in your life seem to think you are still a little boy, and all those who surround you treat you as little boy.
My abuse brother is cool, he rearranges the furniture in my home twice a week, to how he thinks it should be, but everything is what he thinks it should be.
Imagine if I went and rearranged the furniture in his home!
He just likes to please my mother in all of this, but he is not pleasing me, so I rearrange it back the way it was before he came.
I run with so much guilt through my own abuse, because it caused so many problems in my family.
It caused my brother to mentally abuse me, and it also cause him to be abusive to my father which hurt me greatly.
My father constantly had to struggle with his remarks about him being a martyr, and skitting him when he was ill.
Finally, my father died riddled with cancer, my brother had broken down all our lives almost.
Can I ever forgive him for the hurt he put on my father, but should I forgive myself for causing it all by not being a strond kid?
I just let him abuse his father, and OK, he did have a bad time, but only because daddy always doted on the abused child, something he could never accept.
He broke down my confidence, he must have been an issue on my father dying so early, and now I have the guilt of not feeling strong to stop it.
He totally lost it when my father died, and he felt so guilty, and it was me who asked him to finally talk to him on his death bed.
He is beyond all of that now, and back to the old blame it all on me syndrome, but now I can fight him, and he knows and feels it.
Its not the abuse that does it, its all the other things it leads to, and I was watching a programme about Jack and Bobby.
Jack is about 17yo, and Bobby about 13yo.
Bobby was pretty much abused at school, and his brother never helped him, much like me.
Going one step further, my brother abused me at school in front of friends etc.
I was terrified of him then, like, hope I dont bump into him at school, or saying to new friends, hey I will meet you there, instead of just saying, hey lets go.
If I met my brother with a new friend, he would say things to wreck my new friendships.
This was so complex to be a kid with my loving brother around.
ste