The basics about me (10 facts)
NewGerasene
Registrant
1. When I was 11 or 12, I was molested by my older brother, 4.5 years older.
2. He also orally raped me once, something he called "punishment" at the time. Afterwards, he told me I was gay.
3. I was also a victim of emotional or covert invest by my mother. Right now that's harder to write than the other things.
4. She also molested me.
5. There was also verbal abuse. Sometimes I think that had the longest lasting damage.
6. When I remember the sexual abuse, I get aroused, and I hate that more than I can say.
7. I black out part of the memory of my rape. Because I can't remember it all, can't remember the actual act, I doubt myself, or used to.
8. Self-harm is part of my struggle. Haven't done it in a long time, but still struggle.
9. I feel immasculine.
10. I learn about healing from stories like mine AND stories that are different.
2. He also orally raped me once, something he called "punishment" at the time. Afterwards, he told me I was gay.
3. I was also a victim of emotional or covert invest by my mother. Right now that's harder to write than the other things.
4. She also molested me.
5. There was also verbal abuse. Sometimes I think that had the longest lasting damage.
6. When I remember the sexual abuse, I get aroused, and I hate that more than I can say.
7. I black out part of the memory of my rape. Because I can't remember it all, can't remember the actual act, I doubt myself, or used to.
8. Self-harm is part of my struggle. Haven't done it in a long time, but still struggle.
9. I feel immasculine.
10. I learn about healing from stories like mine AND stories that are different.