T feels i need to tell my mom
I have been stress a lot lately not just my mental personal stuff but work also. I ended up with shingles on my head at 49yo. I did not know that was a stress related thing and not age specific. I have not been able to see my T know close to three weeks which i messaged her about my stress and being uncomfortable in not having a session. I am embarrassed i feel i need session every week.
My T messaged ,e back but one thing she said is that she feels i need to talk to my mom at some point, share whith her what i feel. I wa stunned by that. It sort of angered me and upset me. To be honest i have run this sceniro through my mind a lot even before she said tHat.
Here was me response just now to my T.
“If it will be helpful, the time will come for you to talk to your mom. I have run this scenario through my mind for months. In my mind there is the shame i have in like saying hey mom i love you were there for me when i wet the bed, vomiting when i went in to 7th grade, lettering me sleep with her. Oh i loved the comfort in bathing with you and you holding me and touching me. I appreciate you washed my cum rag even in to my 20’s and put it back without bringing up. Yeah i think you knew i had porn mages since like 14 and more stuff in to my 20’s but never brought it up. So yeah mom I appreciate you letting me be a perv.
Oh by the way yeah pawpaw as you knew did stuff with me but to be honest i liked it. At first not really but i got older and did. I dont hate him so yeah i am a perv”
yeah like i want to tell my mom this. i know i am the messed up odd asshole here
My T messaged ,e back but one thing she said is that she feels i need to talk to my mom at some point, share whith her what i feel. I wa stunned by that. It sort of angered me and upset me. To be honest i have run this sceniro through my mind a lot even before she said tHat.
Here was me response just now to my T.
“If it will be helpful, the time will come for you to talk to your mom. I have run this scenario through my mind for months. In my mind there is the shame i have in like saying hey mom i love you were there for me when i wet the bed, vomiting when i went in to 7th grade, lettering me sleep with her. Oh i loved the comfort in bathing with you and you holding me and touching me. I appreciate you washed my cum rag even in to my 20’s and put it back without bringing up. Yeah i think you knew i had porn mages since like 14 and more stuff in to my 20’s but never brought it up. So yeah mom I appreciate you letting me be a perv.
Oh by the way yeah pawpaw as you knew did stuff with me but to be honest i liked it. At first not really but i got older and did. I dont hate him so yeah i am a perv”
yeah like i want to tell my mom this. i know i am the messed up odd asshole here