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duncan

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i have really wanted to talk to you all - i am not sure how - my therapist has told me today that i have had ptsd for 35 years - i am 35 years old - i am constantly reliving memories and
they are triggered constantly - yet not being aware that all of this was permissable to talk about - i thought somehow - i was invisible -it
now occurs to me that no one ever cared - and the
enjoyment the abusers both ea and sa had was their sadism and attacks - i seem to have been an unknowing sex object all these years - and now i am grasping at having real relationships -
having severed finally the family that never was -
i made the most incredible friend this summer - who i cherish and think about all the time - it was romantic and i miss him very much -
so much so - i find myself crying sometimes wherever i am -
i don't know whether i will see him again - regardless the experience is the light of my life now -
 
Duncan,

It is definately ok to talk about your experiences. Or to let out a rant.

You are not invisible, although we tend to hide in the corners. You are not an "it", you are a person.

As you talk about it, you will begin to understand it. And make the choices that are good for you, the ones you want for the real you, not the tramatized you.

I am glad that you found someone special this summer that made you feel good, special. We all deserve that.

Take care,
Bill
 
Duncan,
Brother you are not alone anymore. You are cared for now...for nothing more than just being you. Just take your time, dont try to rush it. Recovery is road that sets it's own pace lots of times. ((((hugs))))
James
 
Duncan this is a good place to let things out.
Men here have gone through tough times, some still are. I hope you keep letting us know what you are up to. Stay healthy ok.

M J
 
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