Survivor with Dissociative Identity Disorder
Thank you for sharing this. It makes me very happy to know I was able to give you that gift. I feel a great sense of responsibility to pass on what I have learned from the experiences in my life. Only those who have walked the road can truly understand. Or give hope to others there is a path that waits ahead.
It may seem like I am charging full steam ahead, but there is a System of seven alters taking the bullet behind the scenes to protect me from feelings and memories until I am ready to handle them. Recovery is an extremely self-centered experience. I have been doing the hard work for 11 years now. But I could not have come as far as I have without my wife’s love and the caring support of the professionals I have been blessed to work with.
It gets better but I’m not trying to fool anyone; I still wake up screaming and cry myself to sleep. My wife has stuck with me since my breakdown, but we have been "Living Apart Together" since 2018. Our couple’s therapist is amazed we didn't throw in the towel and go our separate ways years ago. One day at a time we give it our all to keep what we have from slipping through our fingers.
Survivors are all in different stages of recovery and apply a plethora of coping mechanisms “to” survive. Whatever sense of balance I have managed to achieve comes from surviving- one slow and painful step at a time. The further I heal, the more I see the truth that Peace comes by living in the present moment. Other people caused me great suffering as a child. But my refusal to let go of the past, the good and the bad, is the cause of my suffering today.
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