Surviving for (right now) only this (TRIGGERS)

Surviving for (right now) only this (TRIGGERS)
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crisispoint

Registrant
Many folks here know I was at a pretty low ebb yesterday. I'm better now, but still down.

And then I read a post on another forum here from soneone who means a lot to me. They're also at a low ebb for things pretty serious, and they're concerned that their perp is going to outlive them.

This, of course, triggered a great deal of anger in me for mine. Here I am, we all are, dealing with the bullcrap from what HE/THEY did, and THEY get to walk away from it.

Well, I may be down, but I sure as Hell ain't out. I'm pretty sure I'm going to outlive mine, if I haven't already, but I'm going to find out if the major dips**t is still alive, and if he is, I'm going to stick around for one major reason - to see him die.

I'm not going to kill the b*****d myself. Too easy and it isn't worth my freedom. But I will see him in his grave and on the way to Hell so I can dance (and maybe p**s) on it.

I'll outlive this SOB. I'll outlive them all. This is a major reason for sticking around.

I'm posting this so that others will maybe take THEIR feelings of pain and return them to where they belong. I know I have for the moment.

Peace and love. Lord knows, we deserve both.

Scot
 
Unfortunately, their death and my outliving them won't erase what they did to me.
 
Dear friend,

I know. For you, for ME, it won't erase it. But maybe outliving them will give me just another victory over them.

And, when the anger abates, as it always does, I'll get deeper, more meaningful things out of life. I already do, but when things are low, I'll latch onto anything to keep going. Even hatred.

It's a short-burning fuel, but it burns hot. And I'll get a jumpstart out of it to the things that should matter more.

I owe myself the opportunity to see it again. So do you.

Love,

Scot
 
Scot
there's going to be a hell of a lot of people 'pissing on graves'
Nearly every Survivor I talk to has that as their number one priority!

It might cool them down, on their way to hell...

Dave
 
The first one is probably dead, and stoking up the fires of HELL along with his boss Satan, he might as well do as he made my life HELL on Earth.

The others, well they just made my life Hell, for not telling on them, how many others did they get?

It is me who shoulders the blame for not telling, but I dont recognise them, so they may be anyone who walks past me.

The feeling gives me a cold shiver down my spine, guilt complex brought on over many years, but I have to know, it is not my guilt, but theirs.

It's their turn to carry the millstone around their necks, and not mine.

I am sick of carrying THEIR GUILT, f##k them and p@ss off, I too would dance around your graves, if only I knew where you lie.

But I am still here to torment you, child killer, baby raper, nappy snapper, call yourself what you want. If any of you are alive, I hope you are going through the thought of me coming back.

Hey though, could I ever do as much harm to you, as you did to me as a kid??? Don't f##cing think so,

ste
 
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