I thank you all for such kindness and good ideas and words to me. I am very much struck with feeling in it, and I cannot speak it enough, how many gratitude I have to many people here. With the help of friends and my sister, I hope very much to support strength during short time more, and then "I shall be probably free" some of some things. I know, that it will not erase all other issues and experiences, but probably it will help me with addressing to other fears and problems to be finished with it. All of you very kind also are generous, and I am not confident what to tell, but to thank you.
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