Stressing a bit, need support.

Stressing a bit, need support.
J

John Oarc

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I am going through a wierd time right now, I find myself stuck to the computer to see what you guys think of the book. I am nervous, like I am going to the police to tell my story like I did at 9 years old after the molestation. I am needing your feedback like an addict and I know it is not right to need like that. I know that I am seeking approval like I have done most of my life, but this time it is bigger than ever, my life is on paper, others will read it and I am fearful. I know that is not right either but I am feeling a great deal of stress, hoping that the book will help others, hoping that it may bring attention to our plight, hoping that it may save lives, hoping that I will not let all of you down and the list goes on. The pressure is great and I don't know how to deal with it other than to come here and talk to you guys, my brothers. I had no idea I would go through this and I don't mean to burden you guys, but your support will be much appreciated, support by way of these post's.
 
John,

I visited the web page you listed regarding your book. I think that you should relax. I was going to order it but I think I will get at Barnes and Noble.

I think that making the effort to tell your story will help all of us. RELAX!

Jaay
 
i think the cover is cool perfect
 
Your right about relaxing, I have been trying to relax and just can't seem to get there. The book "living a life meant for it" is helping me to seperate from it, I will keep trying. It is hard to let go but I need to just relax like all of you have said. For some reason over the last couple of nights I have been anxious to hear back from you guys, I just wanted to see what you thought of the cover and the sneak peek. I guess I am looking for approval, acceptence, you know the typical SA stuff.

Thanks for the replies,
 
You getting anxious about a book seems fine, when you meet me, one who gets gets anxious about every post, as if I am on the line here, and so check in to see, whether someone has responded to 'me', or got mad at me....and then I remember it is not me, and just a post written by me.

Even if you dont like my post, is it ok, what I fear is that you not liking me, and that IS my fear...and then again I tell myself it is ok if you dont like me, I like myself enough, post or no post.

Ramble stilltenskin
 
And guess who has been feeling so anxious all this while, it is the boy who lives in me, he comes up to me and tell me how he is feeling, but now I am doing better as I dont shoo him away like my father, I say, "Its ok, its ok..." and then I remember that is what I wanted to hear all this while!

Today, we are both fine,as we have each other for company.
 
Morning Star, I can say that with your post I feel comfort, you are right in all that you have said. The little boy in me feels like he is exposing himself to the world once more and he is afraid that others will not like what he has to say, some may get angry and again you are right the book has its on identity now and I just have to let it go.

Thanks for the reply,
 
John,

I think you will find that it will take awhile to get feedback about your book. It takes time for a book to be ordered, to arrive, and then finally to get read!

I certainly intend to read it and I'm glad you have been able to tell your story.

Much love,
Larry
 
John,

I think I commented elsewhere about the cover, which is already an incredible statement! I also like the preview.

Much love,
Larry
 
Thanks Larry, it's my bad for being so anxious. I only posted about it for help because I knew you guys could help me come out of it and you have. I am going to let this book go, if it helps others great, if people like it great, if they don't I can't help it, I just wrote the truth about my life and struggles and triumph. My T said the anxiety is what any author would face, not a new thing. I am going to be okay and I am going to stop worrying about it.

I have to say you guys are the greatest, you make my day better every day.

Thanks for the help,
 
John,

It's not bad at all. In fact it's very moving to observe your reactions. You have put a lot of heart and soul into your book, so of course you are nervous about how it will be received.

Much love,
Larry
 
Figured out what has been bothering me, I am sorry I was down but I have a hormonal problem. My Testosterone levels are low and I have to manage them with medication, steroids. When the levels reach bottom I lose my confidence and damn near lose the will to get up in the morning. It is hard to manage it and the mood fluctuates right with my hormones. I just feel bad for venting on all of you with this post when it was a hormonal problem. Does anyone else have hormonal issues. I had a vasectomy after my third child and I have had problems since then. I have used before this when they were low but I could come off of them without any problems now I am stuck with the medication, Dr. prescribed and monitored steroid injections.

Again sorry for the low, fearful post's and the anxiety ridden conversation on my part. Thanks for being there for me, you guys are great as usual.
 
Have you tried Androgel? It is a gel you put on and the testosterone is absorbed transdermally. I have used it for about 9 months and I could not believe the mood difference it made!
 
John,

if the publisher has not already done it, send copies to leading newspapers for review.
The Guardian in the UK, and the independent do book reviews, that is what gets them selling.

It is a niche market for this type of book, and because it is not fiction, then it will sell all the more,

ste

BTW The cover is great!
 
John,

We all have issues and you have yours. Just post as you are, and that will do nicely. ;)

Ste has a valuable point. Has your publisher sent out review copies to any of the main review media for such a book?

Much love,
Larry
 
I just talked to a friend and they suggested the patch, I got the gel first and the physician suggested that I use the injection. I may go back to the gel or the patch, the injection lifts me up high then bottoms out.

Thanks for all the advise, I will find out what they are doing at the publishing company. I have emailed Bill Orielly, and a few abuse sites and all of them have requested the book for review, except Bill, I just sent that email a few days ago. I think the newspapers route is a great idea and again thanks for the advise. Man I feel much better and apologize for the anxiety ridden post. I feel a bit stupid for all of that, it is a crazy thing "confidence" and hormones sure do mess with it.
 
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