Stress

[endlessjourney]

I always seem to bite off more than I can chew. I take on work loads with my job and school that overwhelm me. I love the feeling of being tough and responsible when it comes down to it. Having all this responsibility gives me dignity. I now realize that I don't need to work myself to death to have that dignity. I spend a lot of my offtime feeling stressed out and miserable. And sleep, What's that? I know what I must do to change my life style but its so hard to change habits I've had for so many years. I do not settle for the path of least resistance but I guess it is not necessary for me to take on the path of most resistance. Sometimes my schedule makes it difficult to nurture and take care of myself. I just wanna hurry up and graduate and start getting my feet wet. After graduation I will have much more leisure time. Ahh! I just had to vent that before I go back to Slavery heh heh! Well happy new year everyone! My resolution is to go easy on myself. I guess we'll see how it goes. Any input?

 

[roadrunner]

EJ,

Your situation sounds a lot like what I used to do all the time. Instead of finishing old tasks I would simply start new ones, which would arouse my enthusiasm and keep me going for awhile.

I finally discovered, with the help of my T, that I was not finishing things because I felt that the results would be so substandard and everyone would see what a failure I am. That turned out to be just crap left over from abuse years ago, however, and in many ways I was using my self-imposed work load as a way of refusing to face my real and increasing desperate personal problems.

You really floored me with this one:

After graduation I will have much more leisure time.

Which planet do you live on? Seriously, remember that the work habits and ways you deal with work as opposed to personal life now are the things you will carry on into the rest of your life.

Stress is a self-perpetuating problem and it can get very serious bro. Relief doesn't just happen, you have to TAKE it. Sometimes you have to just CLAIM time for yourself and tell the rest of the world to fuck off. Those moments of relaxation are the sweetest of all!!!!

Much love,
Larry

 

[endlessjourney]

"tell the rest of the world to fuck off, Hmm, well put! Ya know what, as far as habits are concerned, I think I just may try to establish the habit of taking time for myself. That will be a priority. Thanks for the input.

thanks
Jason