Strength to go forward

Well, today was a rough one. Yesterday, i confronted my mom about her abusive behavior towards me, today my shrink told me we would not be able to have contact during his break. . (we have done this for the last five years and was "amazed" he hadn't told me and is mad at me for my reaction to this news); my wife has developed additional ticks (she has Tourette Syndrome) and needs to go off her medication, the car needs $650 worth of work and we have skunks around the house.

Aside from that Mrs. Lincoln, how did you like the play? I'm tired of having such intensity . . . I'm embarrassed for having such trouble for keeping it together and ashamed I have so much trouble. . . and tired and feeling somewhat sorry for myself. Sorry.

Its just a lot - I spend so much of my time trying to stay even - when it goes badly, it really goes badly. . . I try not to take it out on myself - by frankly, all I want is peace. My parents should never have had children. . People are either helped or hurt by their upbringing. . I'm afraid I was really hurt.

There is nothing anyone can really do. . I know tomorrow may be better. . . (although it doesnt' feel that way now)


Brian B14


Good for you for standing up to your mom!! It may not change her behavior but it has to make you feel good (or at least better) to finally talk to her about it.

We all have bad days. Don't apoligize for venting. Thats what this site is all about. I hope to talk to you soon.

God Bless,