Straw poll part 2
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Straw poll part 2
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My answer to your straw poll was bi which is where I see myself as being although I've not acted on it. However, it is part of the toys that my wife and I enjoy together and one that I enjoy in particular in making love. She's told me that this is as far as she is willing to go.
I consider myself straight. I have had sex only with women, never with men. But I think it is clear that the CSA also made me doubt my sexuality, having been introduced to sexual activity at such a young age.
this was a tough one for me to decide. if I had the choice I would say "Straight - but with SSA complications." until I was married, the only sexual experiences I had were abusive ones with males. Since being married, the only ones have been with my wife - but all kinds of thoughts, memories and flashbacks have intruded and made it very messy. I do sometimes have desires that are confusing and disturbing that I wish would go away. so it is not an easy or clear-cut choice. if I had my ideal it would be to have everything simple and straight only.
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I would say bi-curious, however when I decided to try out (three times to be exact) any of the same sex fantasies swirling around in my head for years, it never played out the way I envisioned. I felt terrible afterwards, and it turned me off from sex in general for years even. That's not to say I think sex with women is everything it's cracked up to be either. I've had the good, bad and ugly there as well, but the only positive sexual experiences I've had were with women.
Wow! I have struggled with this question since I was 11 years old. But before that age, my father had always criticized me for standing like and acting like a "fairy." I do take into account that he was "all man" or a "manly man," being a decorated soldier. But I also remember women my mother would run into in public with me close by in those women telling her what a pretty little girl I was.
The first time I was abused by a male, I was five years old. It lasted for about two weeks. The next time was from the ages of 11 until 14. Once the abuse was over, I was very sexually active and promiscuous both sexes, sometimes even both at once. And I always wondered about the whole " chicken or the egg" question: " was I like this before the abuse, or did the abuse somehow make me this way?"
I guess I will never know. But I remember during the years that my father said I was a fairy, being attracted in a very innocent way to girls. I am blissfully happily married now to a woman, but I am definitely Bi.
This was a really intriguing question. I hope my answer isn't too uncomfortable for anyone. I have to admit, I'm a little self-conscious seeing that I am the only one who answered it in the way that I did.
The first time I was abused by a male, I was five years old. It lasted for about two weeks. The next time was from the ages of 11 until 14. Once the abuse was over, I was very sexually active and promiscuous both sexes, sometimes even both at once. And I always wondered about the whole " chicken or the egg" question: " was I like this before the abuse, or did the abuse somehow make me this way?"
I guess I will never know. But I remember during the years that my father said I was a fairy, being attracted in a very innocent way to girls. I am blissfully happily married now to a woman, but I am definitely Bi.
This was a really intriguing question. I hope my answer isn't too uncomfortable for anyone. I have to admit, I'm a little self-conscious seeing that I am the only one who answered it in the way that I did.
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Thanks for being brave enough to answer like you did 1in6. That's exactly how I was - my dad was in the Air Force so all manly. I grew up with 7 sisters and would get beat if I was caught playing Barbies or anything with them. Then if I cried I was told to "be a man".
I've had the same questions and promiscuity that you did. I am very happily married to a wonderful woman, but if I had to label it I would be bi.
I've had the same questions and promiscuity that you did. I am very happily married to a wonderful woman, but if I had to label it I would be bi.
