Still a bit lost....

Still a bit lost....
S

susskinsdrew

Registrant
...got a call from the perp's probation officer. Dan was released from jail EARLY. He left a voice mail for me. Said if I had any questions, to call him. Yeah right. I did, of course, hasn't returned my call. That was Tuesday.

I refuse to allow this to get to me. I haven't told my son, for he's had a hellavua time in school this year. I had a meeting with his team at school and they feel it's best he return to the autism program as opposed to being mainstreamed.

Drew will take this hard. I don't think I'm going to tell him until school is out. Not sure if that's teh best, but I think that's the route I'm going to take.

Why must life be so hard? Why must those of us who have experienced hell continue to experience crap? Why are those of us considered to be STRONG continually challenged? I want simplicity. I want normalcy. I want the things everyday people are granted. For some reason, I feel I am forever branded with a, "Go for her, she's strong and can take anything. Tag her," tagline.

I swear to you all, I'm not having a pity party. I'm not seeking sympathy. Aside from a couple of people, I don't share my thoughts with anybody anymore. I suppose it's my way of TRYING to put this behind me.

Anyway, good things to you and yours. Be blessed and seek Joy!

Susan
 
Susan,

Would you like to have a pity party? Go for it. Just don't party so hard that you can't get out of bed in the morning :)

Do you and Drew have an advocate on the school team? Is it just his teachers/counselors or are there other parents or something?

SAR
 
Susan,

Nothing wrong with a pity party every now and then.

You fought so hard for your son and you will continue to do that. You can't control the idiot court system, but you can protect Drew and Drew knows that you always will.

Yes, the strong seem to bear alot of the grief, that's why they're always climbing to the top. As long as you keep trying to pull others up with you, the burden is worth the fight.

ROCK ON........Trish
 
Susan,

You are going through a hell of an experience and I find so much of it shocking and infuriating.

A pity party would be fine, as SAR and Trish point out, but I also think you are asking for something we all need in such a situation: support, a feeling that we are not all alone and at least SOME people understand us and feel the same way.

One brief question, and my apologies if I am missing something that has already been covered. Is there a current restraining order against the perp, forbidding him from contacting or even approaching Drew?

Much love,
Larry
 
Thank you all for your words of encouragement, emapthy and just shear understanding.

Yes, his perp has an order to stay away from us and to any kids 2 years younger than him (his 18th birthday was Oct. 2, '05).

I have to find a way to get my strength back.

I have to find a way to become the advocate again.

I'm tired. Emotionally, physically. I feel spent. Just hope I find the way again.

Thanks again.

S
 
Susan,

But you have a right to feel emotionally and physically tired. Is there anything you can do to recharge? A trip away from home, perhaps. If that isn't possible, then choose a feasible time of the day and declare it your inviolable time just for yourself, to do things only for your enjoyment: painting, music, reading, whatever.

I think we all need to prevent our lives from becoming reduced to nothing but struggle.

Much love,
Larry
 
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