Sorry for not supporting
Sorry if I've been a bit quiet over the last week, I usually try to support as many of the posts that I can.
Think I'm going through another phase on the recovery route that leaves me a little bit numb. I woke up the other night with the strangest feeling, I was half asleep, but felt as though I was acutely aware of every vein in my body, and that something was leaving it. It was a bit like when you have a cut and apply germolene (draws out infection), and you can actually feel the poison leaving your body...it was such a strong feeling that is hard to interpret ....felt a bit like what I imagine an exorcism is (???!!!).
I've said before that the new silence in my head is difficult to cope with (although good)...it's now like I've transcended this. It's powerful and frightening at the same time. I sort of feel cleaner, frightened, powerful, tired, motivated, directionless all in one....I know it's recovery and I know it's positive, but it's weird!
Best wishes to everyone and the strength to move on (it takes a lot)....Rik
Think I'm going through another phase on the recovery route that leaves me a little bit numb. I woke up the other night with the strangest feeling, I was half asleep, but felt as though I was acutely aware of every vein in my body, and that something was leaving it. It was a bit like when you have a cut and apply germolene (draws out infection), and you can actually feel the poison leaving your body...it was such a strong feeling that is hard to interpret ....felt a bit like what I imagine an exorcism is (???!!!).
I've said before that the new silence in my head is difficult to cope with (although good)...it's now like I've transcended this. It's powerful and frightening at the same time. I sort of feel cleaner, frightened, powerful, tired, motivated, directionless all in one....I know it's recovery and I know it's positive, but it's weird!
Best wishes to everyone and the strength to move on (it takes a lot)....Rik
