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[RodM]

I just want to fly into rage at all the effects that the abuse has done to me. most of all it would be nice to know why I have such a strong sex drive and how to control it more it seems I want it all the time or at least once a day. the other thing that would be really nice is to not every time i see my girlfriend the first reacation is that I want to have sex with her maybe I could just enjoy being with her this dosent happen all that time but I have decicded to try and not have sex on the first few dates were at number five and havent had sex still getting to know one another. its all new to me since most of the time I am use to sleeping with them on the first date or so
any one else have the same problems

Rod

 

[outis]

Rod,

I have felt a lot of anger that I misdirected, usually towards my wife, but I still don't feel much anger about what the perp did, what I lost, etc.

I do see people in a sexual way a lot more than I would like. I remember hugging my wife while she cried when her grandmother died and getting aroused and ashamed because of it. It seems there's a lot of "aroused and ashamed" in my life.

Thanks,

Joe