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lostboyalone

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Everything is bad. Wanna scream. My insides hurt, sick. Miss my little brother. Miss the Dad I had for while. Guys wrote poems I read it. Wish I didnt. Daddy Jake I want you back. Come back cos Im alone and scared, take me riding horses again. Dont feel safe cos your not here. Wanna hurt something. Wanna hurt me but I promised you I wont. Gotta move and dunno where we going. Auntie says we gonna be ok. She never lies but Im scared. Shes sad and I dont wanna tell her sad stuff. I made a fake smile and joke so she dont know how I feel so bad today. Had bad dreams bout Moms bf. I hate him so bad. He hurt me. In my dream he was hurting me again . Its the morning and it still scares me. Wanna hide forever and sleep forever and not do nothing forever.Hate Aunties bf Moms bf. Gonna explode like a bomb smash my head against the wall. I want it all to stop. Stop and stop and leave me alone and go away. Make this all stop . Mixed up cant breathe cant think. Stop the hurt how How do I stop all of it?
 
Hi there lostboyalone,

I want to tell you that I hear you. I know that things are bad now. Sometimes screaming can help.

Remember that NOW you are safe. No one is going to hurt you.

Take a deep breathe and relax.

I do not know how to stop the hirt but I know it will go away with time.

Take care

Jonathan
 
LBA, sometimes screaming out lets out some of the hurt, please do not hurt yourself.
Find something to take your mind off things.

Your Auntie is always right you say, so just wait and see what happens.

Contact your mod buddy, and talk with him about things, he is there to do that.

I am sorry you are scared, and I hope that everything gets a little better for you.

Try deep breathing, or go for a walk, or ride your bike if you have one.

Find something to divert yourself from this hurt, and dont be reading things in here that are hurting you more.

You are never really alone here,

ste
 
Guys - I think lostboyalone needs to vent. The Mod Buddy system has been in frequent contact! He and his family are having a personal crisis and this is how he feels and he is letting it out! Thanks for listening, understanding and responding!!

Howard/Mod Buddy
 
I wasnt gonna hurt myself cos I promise not to. I wanted to hurt something I just felt all like that but not really do it. Im not scared now cos we got a place to go. Im mad at stuff still. I went on my skateboard before and now Im eatin lunch.Still wanna scream but not doing that either. Still feeling bad but dunno just feel that way. thanks from me
 
I am glad you took your mind away, it is also good that you have a place to go to.

It is OK to scream in here, and it is not sissy to cry either.

Grownups cry too, but it is just away of dealing with hurt, and it is OK,

you are safe now,

ste
 
You always Have nemo to hold.
 
Scream. Here is a good place, a safe place.
Once when I was feeling like my throat would burn and my mouth explode from the choked tears and words, I screamed in the shower. Nobody else was around and I let the water run down me and cleanse me and I let out streams of tears and screams too,
It felt good. I was tired after, so I took a nice nap too.
Take care.
Peace,
Steve
 
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