Some one close to me.(repost for ppl in this post)
I had a friend close to my hart wake me up at the age of 19. It was Code (Cody). He was one year younger than me in age and sixty years older in wisdom. He lived in South Africa under his mountain Table Mountain right next to his happy place the beach and ocean. I found Cody in a chat room when I was in need (freaking out about being gay. I thought there was something wrong with me). I will never forget it. I went in to a chat room and said Will some one help me? Out of the forty three people in that room Cody was the only one that talked to me. (He had over 200,000 people visit his site wile he was alive online I found out later) He was the one that told me there was nothing wrong with me and being gay was not wrong either. I am who I am and not to let anyone change that, that I should live life my way. He befriended me before I knew what happened. With code he either likes you (I think he liked everyone) or he doesnt and if he did he would do anything he could to be your friend. We only chatted online about ten or fifteen times over around six months for hours on end, but it seemed like a life time. After a wile I started having trouble finding him online, and just started enjoying life in the closet. About two months ago and four years from the time we last chatted I was in need again. I was coming out of that closet, and I was dealing with my past (my sexual abuse). So I got online and looked for two days before I found anything. I found on November 3, 2001 at the age of 19 Cody had been drinking at a party with friends at four in the morning. He was drunk and could not drive. So doing the smart thing, like always, he got a ride home with a friend. The problem was his friend was a speed freak and crashed the car at 160km/100mph. Codes friend was killed instantly and Cody died on the operating table a short time later. Code will always be loved, missed, and never forgotten. I now have a charm on my neck that says never drive faster than you guardian angle can fly in remembrance of my guardian angle, Cody.
To my guardian angel.
Cody anther day has gone by without you. My days are so sad now that youre gone. I carry a smile but my hart is broken. Would someone tell me why you had to go? I often wonder if the lord realizes he took you too soon. I sit here with tears in my eyes and memories of you that keeps me going day after day.
Everyday I ask myself; how I let myself slip away form the internet, chat rooms, and you. Cody, I never told you how much you helped me in that chat room. I am sorry I took your presents for granted. Your words couldnt have been much more from the heart. You taught me to forever trust in who I am and that this is my life, I should live it my way. Not the way others think I should. You also taught me to keep an open mind for a deferent point of view. That things are not as bad as they may seem. I wish you were here now. I just cant see the good in you not being here. Before I met you online I had never opened myself that way. I felt like a stranger in my own house when we last chatted. And you helped me through it. I thank you so much.
Cody, though were far apart you will always be in my hart. All though the waves will never fall the same, your friends and I will look for better days. You will be missed forever.
P.S. Maybe you can still help others were you are now the way you helped me so long ago.
With love,
Blake_sanders_1999
To my guardian angel.
Cody anther day has gone by without you. My days are so sad now that youre gone. I carry a smile but my hart is broken. Would someone tell me why you had to go? I often wonder if the lord realizes he took you too soon. I sit here with tears in my eyes and memories of you that keeps me going day after day.
Everyday I ask myself; how I let myself slip away form the internet, chat rooms, and you. Cody, I never told you how much you helped me in that chat room. I am sorry I took your presents for granted. Your words couldnt have been much more from the heart. You taught me to forever trust in who I am and that this is my life, I should live it my way. Not the way others think I should. You also taught me to keep an open mind for a deferent point of view. That things are not as bad as they may seem. I wish you were here now. I just cant see the good in you not being here. Before I met you online I had never opened myself that way. I felt like a stranger in my own house when we last chatted. And you helped me through it. I thank you so much.
Cody, though were far apart you will always be in my hart. All though the waves will never fall the same, your friends and I will look for better days. You will be missed forever.
P.S. Maybe you can still help others were you are now the way you helped me so long ago.
With love,
Blake_sanders_1999