Some Good News

[arghilles]

Hello Group Members!

I have come to a really good insight.
I can probably learn to just let things be and instead of hurting myself or telling me that I am bad or dirty I can tell myself that I am not.
I tried this today and I got instant good results. The crying I had done healed and I let it heal instead of making me feel bad afterwards.
I went outside to get my daughter home from day care. On the way,
I realized that I have been looking serious and important since the abuse started taking off really badly.
However I am sad and depressed inside.Tha is why I take on the serious important autthorative look.

So when I reached home again I felt that rather than being relieved that I was back and could shut the door on the outside world, I had a wish to invite people in or me stay out there in the courtyard getting to know my neighbours.

Now I know that in time my negative energy can be transformed into good and positive energy.
I can learn to accept kindness and help and love instead of rejecting it. I was taught to make it on my own. No one was there for me. I can relearn.

It is a good thing to know and i feel happy to know that I have this sound and healthy capibility.

Hopefully this will help someone else.
Deep down we all want to be nurtured and loved.


Take good care,

Erik

PS My choice of words might be all screwed up. Not sure about nurture for instance.

One more thing I think reading posts here and being part of this group and not least always getting support helps dismembering the feeling of isolation.

 

[Mike Church]

Erik my Swedish Brother

You said

So when I reached home again I felt that rather than being relieved that I was back and could shut the door on the outside world, I had a wish to invite people in or me stay out there in the courtyard getting to know my neighbours.

Is that not quite a feeling. Erik the walls that you built to keep others out, and more importantly kept you trapped within, are developing huge cracks and that is such an important thing.

Keep at it ok.

 

[Bill_1965]

Erik,

Good insight. Keep remembering that. Don't build walls to keep people out, rather surround yourself with good people. A much better way to keep yourself safe.

Bill

 

[Leosha]

Erik, that is very good insight you have gained. Oftentime, other people can tell us similar things, but we need to discover them ourselves to fully feel it's truth.

Also, I just wished to say, I think your English is very good! Mine, prior to moving here, did not even exist, so I think you are doing fine with it! (Better then me still)

I wish you continued good luck.

Leosha