Some artwork *possible trigger*

Some artwork *possible trigger*

Sick Puppy

Registrant
Over the last few months I have been creating collages in Photoshop with stock photos (photos that are in the public domain) that I find on the internet. Some of the photos may have dubious origin, meaning that I am not entirely sure if they are public domain or not, but this is the nature of the internet. I hope it's alright that I post them here, but I am not ever planning to publish them or make money from them so I would think that copyright would not be much of an issue.

Here is the first gallery. The website may be a little slow. They're in order from oldest to newest, and to the side you can see the details of what I used, etc, to make the collage. None of them contain graphic imagery but it may be implied so I will warn that these collages MAY BE A TRIGGER.
https://home.graffiti.net/slpunk/gallery.html

I will offer explanations for the collages because there are none on the page.

"Consume Me" is about my mother and how she abused me.

"Prey" is about my experience in prison.

"Junk" is about my experience with drugs (specifically heroin.)

"Salvation" does NOT have an anti-Christian message so please do not take it as such. It is another collage about my experience in prison and specifically how people would come in and try to get us to accept religion and they would act as if somehow everything would be OK if we just read the Bible. (I believed them and I tried it but I was still in hell.)

Here is another page which houses a two-part collage called Dee and the Movement of Sorrow. (Possible *trigger* especially to those whose abuse involved religion.)
https://home.graffiti.net/slpunk/dee.html

It is not about me but it is about my partner Dave and his experiences in Catholic school. Again, not an anti-Christian message. It is more about his disenchantment with the religion, the harshness that the school taught him, and his loss of individuality. Here is an explanation I had typed up for a friend.

I'm not sure if I can adequately explain all the bits and pieces but I will try... though I think it takes some of the interest out of it.

'Dee' is someone I know but it doesn't neccesarily have to be that specific person; it could be anyone in the same situation. Dee went to Catholic school growing up and distinctly disliked it. The boy (Dee) looking up at Christ with his eyes blacked out was supposed to represent Christ becoming simply an icon and not an actual person or spirt to him because of the strict formality and structure of Catholic school. The class photo, in black and white, is supposed to represent the general facelessness of his peers and classmates; Dee is the only one in color. The man with his face scratched out is Dee's father who was cold and abusive. The Lord's Prayer is directly next to this photo to draw a connection between Dee's father on earth and the "father" in heaven, and to emphasize the idea that Dee's father expected eternal gratitude and to be treated almost as a god for being the provider of the family. The "sin, retribution, truth" images are references, again, to the strict black-and-white rules of Dee's childhood world and also a simple illustration of struggles he went through within that world. Anything deviating from the rules was treated as 'sin' or a horrible infraction and was generally punished with violence. The 'truth' image is meant to be hands holding a Bible, which was treated as the absolute and ultimate truth. I chose an image of two people holding hands for 'sin' because Dee is gay and, understandably, went through a lot of problems during adolescence having been raised in a strict Catholic environment. The 'retribution' image was meant to be one person punching another but the fist got cut off at the top and I didn't notice until later... I hope it's still clear. Dee did not meet with so much violence within the school as he did from his father who literally beat him into a coma when he discovered that his son was having sex with a boy from his school... and I have already explained the 'truth' image. I hope this clears things up; if there's any more questions, feel free to ask them.

One of the major reasons I made this a double collage is because I really liked how the first one looked when it looked as it does now but I felt people would get the message that it was about homosexuality, which it isn't. I added the second one to broaden things out and hopefully show that it's more about strict religious rules and a colorless upbringing.

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Someone said this to me, about the collage:

"I really really like the small photo entitled 'sin.' That in itself is a work of art. Very powerful. I didn't make any assumptions that this dealt with homosexuality per se, but it definitely fits the image, given your explanation. To me, the 'holding hands,' and the soft lighting of the image, suggested something innocent, something sincere, and something very personal. The cold contrast of the type-faced word 'sin' is glaring. Like an impersonal, hard-line condemnation, one that is given without understanding or compassion. I think that image can stand all by itself. The 'retribution' and 'truth' images also do well by themselves, but 'sin' really grabbed me."
I'm adding it in here because I think they did a good job of talking about that particular aspect of the collage and I liked how they described it.
I always manage to write entirely too much in my posts. Sorry. :o :)

EDIT: By the way, in the Dee collage, the little boy by the statue was not originally there but I put him in from another picture. I am rather proud of the job I did in matching the shading and light source so they really look like they belong in the same picture. :)
 
While no great judge of art, I think it is great SP. It's great that you can find a healthy and creative way to express your emotions. It's something I sorely envy.

Good for you and good work. :)

Eric
 
out of great pain comes great creativity and expressiveness. allowing yourself to do this and share it with us honors me and everyone here (speaking just a wee bit beyond what I should).

thanks josh,
jer
 
All I can say Josh is WOW!

You have so much talent... Expressive and insightful.

Do you have any other art that you might be willing to share with us?

Perhaps the site admins could add a forum to express the artistic talent of the members?
 
Good, man. I have to say they are not as disturbing as I thought, it is raw stuff though. I think the red of the pictures really makes you feel the atmosphere. I never thought of red as a way to see my life but it works. I also do art work You can see my stuff at www.rankmyart.com
I am in the abstract section under the name Tone.
I find that art is a good form of releasing emotions that I cannot express in words.
Thanks for sharing man, Tone
 
Tone
"Weakness" is a powerful piece, I can relate to that and see what you were thinking ( I think )

And don't forget to vote when you view Tone's work.

Dave
 
Josh:

Powerful, personal, poignant stuff! Thanks for sharing it.

Tone:

I also was especially attracted to "weakness". (I wonder why?...) My personal take on that is that it's the real me trapped inside this creature I've
been made into, trying to play my way out by playing my own music & song.

Maybe not what you had in mind but it makes "Weakness" powerful for me. Thanks.

Victor
 
glad you guys took a look at my stuff. Dave and Victor you are right, I used to call this piece "selfportrait" but people didn't understand and asked too many questions so I changed the title. I suppose that "self portrait" can be used within the confines of this group. Before this group I thought that the animal that represented me better was the Bear. It is solitary, it lacks the facial muscles to express emotions that other animals like wolves do and can go from a docile nature to agression within seconds without people understanding why. I have had the chance to study bears up close in the wild and found that I am not unlike them.
Thanks , Tone.
 
WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SP, Tone I loved all of the art work you both shared with us. They all seemed to "speak" right to the little boy inside of me that is so traped. TY both for shareing your art, and those pictures were true to me at least. Please keep shareing them with us, I would love to see more of them.

Be safe brother wolf.

James
 
I agree with James it's always great to see fine art here! Thanks guys!

Tone,

Bears are fine here but you are also welcome here as a wolf & part of this wolfpack too!

For a long time I've related to the Tazmanian Devil--the "real" one, in the Looney Tunes!
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Actually I still do & always will. I proudly possess several stuffed and figurine Taz's.
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But now of course I am also a proud wolf in this amazing wolfpack of male survivors!
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OOOWWWHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH!

Victor [img]https://jm.g.free.fr/smileys/non-smileys-animated/tazz.gif
 
I agree with James it's always great to see fine art here! Thanks guys!

Tone,

Bears are fine here but you are also welcome here as a wolf & part of this wolfpack too!

For a long time I've related to the Tazmanian Devil--the "real" one, in the Looney Tunes!
Yahoo_09.gif
Actually I still do & always will. I proudly possess several stuffed and figurine Taz's.
Yahoo_14.gif


But now of course I am also a proud wolf in this amazing wolfpack of male survivors!
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OOOWWWHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH!

Victor
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Tone,

I really liked "Weakness" too. I also always kind of likened myself to a bear. Big, solitary, remarkably docile if you don't mess with them, increidibly viscious (sp?) when you do. And somewhere inside was the real me, struggling to breathe.

Like I said to Josh, I think its fantastic that you can express yourself. Thank you for sharing.

Eric
 
For all the people that enjoyed the pictures, let me know, send me an email and i will send you the picture in jpeg file, the resolution and the detail is better than on that web site. Do not hesitate it's no trouble at all , it will be my pleasure.
cheers, tone
 
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