So Anyway,

[Don-NY]

I'm up really late tonight, and I felt like taking this time to make a bunch of posts I have written over the past few weeks, but didn't post yet.

I mean I try to read here for at least an hour a day. When I see a post I have something to say to, I save it, and write my reply later, or the next day, when I have some time.

I have no time anymore. For real. I used to have all the time in the world, because I did nothing but work.

Now I am so busy and productive and doing so many things (not all productive), that I am sometimes amazed, but often thrilled and pleased.

Anyway I was going to find the posts and post my replys, but I started reading and answered some new ones.

I also sort of wanted to tell about something that happened tonight, and what it says about memory, and belief, and what is true and what isn't. I'll get to that yet.

I have this amazing post about procrastination which includes a sentence that I feel should go directly to Bartlett's, do not pass go, do not collect $200.

And that movie, "Butterfly Effect". What a happy surprise. I have a review and a post about that, and what it presents and says about trauma and memory, in spite of itself and it's movie conventions, that I really want to share. I'll get to that soon (after I finish it!).

Yeah, I read every day. I believe strongly in MaleSurvivor, and this site in particular, and I wish I had time to devote to it's keeping and health and growth, but I don't.

Sometimes this makes me feel a bit guilty, but I do what I can in other ways. Should I do more? Could I?

Not now. So much has been denied to me for so many years; I have denied MYSELF so much for so many years, that now I am devouring life and each and every day.

I've worked long and hard, and I have sacrificed a lot, some for good reasons, some for reasons most foul, and now is my time.

Some time ago Ken said that one progression of an abused person was

moving from a) one who suffers to moving to b) seeking help for moving to c) helping others.

This can be true, but it could also be simpler, like this

moving from a) one who suffers to moving to b) seeking help for moving to c) one who doesn't suffer.

What comes after "c)" can be whatever, and there is no guilt or shame attached for me if I am not helping others; if that is not my goal just now.

And now, I'm really tired. Totally out of steam.

Take care guys. Keep moving. You'll all get to "c)". It definitely happens.

There are lessons and gifts and healing given and received here everyday, and you do that.

You're the best.

Donald

 

[Lloydy]

Don
I just love it when a plan comes together ! and yours have by the look of it.

You're right, "C" is an attainable reality, and it matters not one little bit what "your" particular "C" is. That's up to the individual.

I hope it's not the last we "C" of you though

Dave

 

[MrDon]

Hey Donald, Don here..... grin,,,

You are very wise and all I would say is keeping aiming for whatever comes next. Kind of an odd thing to say right,,, but I think where we need to end up next doesn't show up until we place the foot down right smack dab in the middle of it. And oh, how I hate to not know exactly what is coming.

I know we all have to take time for ourselves to do things we want to do, need to do and because we need to take care of ourselves. There is a balance in all things, and if we spend too much time giving to others, and not enough for ourselves, we will soon deplete our resources which renders us depleted. I think you and everyone up here already do so much for others... and without all of us as a collective group, we wouldn't have the strength to do what we are doing in our lives.

Don