Small Victory? Major Victory? Some kind of f-ing victory?

[LupinIII]

Today I went to deposti some money in our bank account and then had to stop by Borders. The neighborhood Borders is in is filled with strip joints, massage studios, "modelling studios" and peep shows.

I started getting that old sexual addiction feeling..my stomach was in knots..my pulse was racing..I felt hornier than a toad...and I was this close..this close to doing something really fucking bad...and I rode out the emotions and made it through without doing naything and went back to work...

I feel sick..i feel drained..but I made it through...some kind of victory for me...hooray?

man i feel like shit

 

[phoster]

i'll celebrate with you...good for you.

 

[crisispoint]

Lupin,

My brother, I am SO FRICKIN' PROUD OF YOU!!!!!


That is an accomplishment. To stare in the face of temptation, and walk away, even when the rest of the body is screaming for it, is an accomplishment worth celebrating.

You're taking back your life. You are taking the CONTROL back.

Congratulations again, my brother. Great job and keep at it. One day at a time!

Peace and love,

Scot

 

[LupinIII]

thanks.,..i still feel like crap and my nervous system is on overdrive....

 

[phoster]

check out my reply on my addicted thread. there was a point where i thought i was addicted to sex, but what you are describing is why i no longer think that. you are in physical withdraw, and you are being driven and having to fight to control yourself. i never had that, so i decided i wasnt an addict. i wish i knew more how to help you with this stuff more, but i think it would take another addict to fully understand it. i dont know what it is like not to be able to walk away with no concern, because i have that ability. if i dont want to look at porn, i dont. i know that doesnt help you, but i felt there is a line between addiction and other issues. from your reaction, you are an actual addict. i know many addicts from my days trying to figure my sexual problems out, but i am not one. i can never fully understand what it is like for you. i can say i am proud of you for walking away. i am proud of you for fighting your habit this time. i can say that you can do it one day at a time.

jeff

 

[breakinfree]

Sounds like a f'n victory to me..great job

 

[jwh]

Right on, brother! It's hard as hell. I know exactly what you're talking about, the stomach in knots, the hands shaking, the mind racing. It takes courage to walk away, and you did it. Awesome!

Jeff

 

[MrDon]

I think it is a big victory! Go out and buy yourself a double dip ice cream cone! Hope that doesn't sound funny, but I do reward myself when I make steps such as these and I try to do it in the simplest child like way I can. Not exactly sure why, but I do and it seems to help.

Don

 

[bec]

congrats Lupin!

i know all too well that sick feeling. i fear i too may be a sex addict/food addict/...

i believe that when the sick feeling hits us our first concern need be doing all we can to meet our needs in a healthy way whatever this means for us at the time. to do all we can to combat the sick feeling and return ourself to 'sanity'/wellness. take care my friend. sincerely,


bec

 

[FlyWM]

Sounds like a victory to me, a big victory, any addiction can be hard to fight, but you made it through and fought your way out the other side, I am proud of you for that, CONGRATS!!

scott

 

[Bill_1965]

A big victory indeed. Keep it up. They get easier each time.

Bill

 

[outis]

LupinIII,

You can tell it was a big victory because you know it took a big effort.

Congratulations. Many more to you.

Thanks,

Joe

 

[MrEdd]

Good for you LupinIII.
One victory at a time.

 

[Muldoon]

It is so hard to walk away and you did it . great Victory on your road to healing. Tom

 

[coolcat]

Good job man. You are awesome. Take care
Gus

 

[Texas_Mike]

success...........

success is a journey; not a destination.

stay positive.....