Since the first day - a Haiku

[Dolphin42]

unsettling feelings
asking to glimpse at secrets
memories blocked

 

[Dolphin42]

impossible acts
not enough years for a dime
I cry forever

 

[Dolphin42]

lovely friendly fun
trust of the best like others
terror, sleep, repeat

 

[Dolphin42]

girls want a boy's charm
boys give charms to other boys
me an other boy

 

[Dolphin42]

too young to desire
50 years lost pretending
no shame charming men

 

[Dolphin42]

grateful life of peace
clueless life dreams nearly won
shattered by flashbacks

 

[Darren White]

These are great! Together they form a series of images. Strong and powerful.
I enjoyed reading them, even though of course it's about a painful subject.
I can express myself best in poetry too.

(Officially these are senryu, but who cares!)

 

[Dolphin42]

Many thanks, Darren. Working to find the right words to describe how my past unfolded puts me in to tears, which soothes me. It's still so hard to comprehend all that happened to me when I was so young. I will add more senryu, as you correctly point out. Thank you for your support.