Sick and tired of dealing with this
Sick and tired of dealing with this
- Thread starterJaysen
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jaysen..it will get better..i have been sober 4 years now..after aprox 35b years in the o zone....yea i think to much..but i also am learning new things...seeing things i never saw before...good things...i feel i wasted my whole life ...now my time is getting shorter..so i would like to maybe find some peace...i have bad days and good days..but it seems like my good days are out numbering the bad ones...hang in there steve
roadrunner
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Jay,
I remember exactly what you are talking about, my friend. A lot of what you are doing is reacting to feelings that have always been there, but were just numbed out and shoved back into the dark by getting wrecked and drunk. To have those feelings come at you so clearly and vividly, and without the usual refuge, is a big challenge. To be honest, it's why staying clean and sober is so hard.
You say something especially important in your post, Jay:
I think what you need to do is set yourself some goals that are important to you and go for them. That will give you something tangible to lose when you think about giving up or taking a "day off", and something to save by resisting the temptation to give in. It will also give you a sense of achieving something real, as opposed to just struggling 24/7.
And as a few guys above have told you, don't sit alone. Come to chat here, call a safe friend, but TALK. All this will help you to see that even if this stuff gets really difficult some days, it CAN be beaten. You aren't alone, and you ARE worthwhile. Lots of guys would be willing to support you. All you have to do is ask for what you need and then accept their help.
Much love,
Larry
I remember exactly what you are talking about, my friend. A lot of what you are doing is reacting to feelings that have always been there, but were just numbed out and shoved back into the dark by getting wrecked and drunk. To have those feelings come at you so clearly and vividly, and without the usual refuge, is a big challenge. To be honest, it's why staying clean and sober is so hard.
You say something especially important in your post, Jay:
I'm not getting in your face about this (or maybe I am!!!), but I smiled when I saw that because I know what the plain English translation is: "It didn't kill me this time". As you know, the problem is it keeps getting harder and harder to cope - what was last year's limit is this year's halfway point.
I think what you need to do is set yourself some goals that are important to you and go for them. That will give you something tangible to lose when you think about giving up or taking a "day off", and something to save by resisting the temptation to give in. It will also give you a sense of achieving something real, as opposed to just struggling 24/7.
And as a few guys above have told you, don't sit alone. Come to chat here, call a safe friend, but TALK. All this will help you to see that even if this stuff gets really difficult some days, it CAN be beaten. You aren't alone, and you ARE worthwhile. Lots of guys would be willing to support you. All you have to do is ask for what you need and then accept their help.
Much love,
Larry
roadrunner
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Jay,
Much love,
Larry
Sometimes we need to call a spade a spade bro, especially when it's really important. When I was your age I had a teacher who did that to me ALL the time. At first I hated it, but then I realized the main reason I hated it was because it was true.
Much love,
Larry