she wins

[redrock]

I thought about NOT posting this as most mothers are good and protective but I have struggled for 52 years with having a mother who was evil. It is rare that we know of to have a mother who is pure evil. Here is a recent mother conviction that is identical to mine. Yes, my mother started molesting me when I was an infant. It continued with her and her boyfriends until I was 16.

trigger warning*****

Ever heard of punishing a pet for pooping on the carpet by rubbing their noses in it. My mom did that to me my sister and my cousins.

I fear for my life in telling this as she is still alive.

My mother would tell me when to get out of bed. She would hold me in bed. I want out. I want to crawl out of my skin.

My mom had long fingernails and would use them on people. She stuck them in my rectum I have several scars in my rectum. I have bladder and bowel issues

I have not been able to trust a woman with my affection ever. I was married for 5 years but NOT happily. I have been single most of my life.

I do have a neurological disease that I inheredited from my mom. It is NOT curable.

 

[focusedbody]

Redrock:

Sorry to hear of your struggle and hope you can find help here and elsewhere.

Most of all, I hope you can look at it not in terms of winning or losing, but more in terms of a process of coming to terms with oneself and one's experience, in any way that helps.

Unfortunately, people who abuse put themselves before others. There is no winning against those odds, only surviving.

Peace,

FB