Shall I give up on finding friends? It sounds useless to have any for me.

I've tried many times but something tells them (friends) that i'm not good enough for anyone... I was watching the rerun of the last episode of Real World 9 today. I could see how much I miss with knowing someone outside of the family. And some of the emotions they showed when leaving from New Orleans at the airport. (even since they knew each other for so short) I wish I could have that. But I don't and I don't know how to show it. I'm just sad and very lonely right now.

 

[Harry]

I watched that last episode too and thought the same thing kinda. I wish I had friendships as good as theirs. Mine just don't seem honest. I'm not myself around them (I'm not myself around anyone actually), so I guess I'm the one being dishonest. But I still envy the kind of friendships they had (without all the MTV Real World drama).


That post "Don't Be Fooled By Me" by fatkid_1000pd is exactly how I feel. I'm sad and lonely too, and I don't let anyone know it except here. I depress myself by not letting myself be myself. But I am on medication for depression now, and I will start therapy to deal with other stuff sometime soon, so I have a little hope for myself. Don't give up. Most people don't show it but feel really lonely too.