Sense of belonging?

[Greg56]

I'm not sure if this is related to abuse. I know, that's when it started with me(but I was also about 13 as well). I've carried that though throughout my life. Starting a few years ago however...I came to realize some of the brutality we as a species have towards one another. Probably with the events on 9/11 is really when it started. But it's steadily gotten worse. While on forums like this, I also learned about things I had never heard of. There are a lot of things that I simply not get my head around. One of them is of course the sexual abuse of children like us. The abduction and selling of children, etc. Some of the things people do are totally out of my realm. It was on a different forum that I first heard of people pooping in another person's mouth, I guess for enjoyment(?). Where does one come up with a thought like that? The senseless killings(or at least senseless to me) of innocent people, etc. Not to start a talk on politics, but after Trump became president and all the shit that came with that...I quit watching the news period. I can't believe that there is no more important things going on than his tweets.

I'm not depressed nor do I feel like hurting myself...but, it just seems like I don't belong with these people. Maybe I'm an alien...lol. I would like to find a group of people who have the same interest as I do(like here for example) but I can't seem to find them.

Just spouting

much love
Greg

 

[i-m-Bri]

Greg56,

I believe very few are born evil. Being social is hardwired into our species. Pretty much anything that overrides that impulse I hold suspect. Hatred is instilled through trauma, neglect and abuse. I feel sorry for those engaged in desires that puts them in danger, that negates self preservation. Even the cruel deserve our compassion, what hell made them?

I also believe that by become the best version of ourself, our person growth can plant seeds, and if one other person finds a way out, it's all worth it.

 

[dark empathy]

I'm afraid I have come to a point where I am a complete scynic about people.
I love the individual, if you show me a person in need and ask me to relate to them i'll employ all my empathy, but en mass things are different, hell i was shown that in the most disgusting, profound and unpleasant way as a teenager, and if I doubt I just have to walk down the street and wait for people to ignore my existance as a disabled person.
Yet oddly enough, there are friends I have whom I regard as truly wonderful, exceptional people whom i genuinely love.

if you ask me the fall had nothing to do with apples or serpents, it was just the day one group of neanderthals said to a member of their tribe they didn't like "this our cave! you not belong here! get out!"

I love the human, I hate humanity, and unfortunately the longer time goes on, and the more people are made into nothing but nameless statistics and boiled down into numbers to bennifit the wealthy or act in someone else's political rivalry, the worse humanity becomes and the less the human comes through.

Luke.