Self Care
Self Care
- Thread starterLarry
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@Greg123 It is so encouraging to hear you are out biking. You are taking time for yourself and doing something you enjoy. That's wonderful!
Your encouragement means a lot to me. Thank you.
The Buzzard Tree
The river has become a haven for me and is a major environment in which I learn and practice my self care.
So, today, I went to the river.
I sat under the buzzard tree.
There are two buzzard trees at the river. One on each side. Both are dead cottonwood trees. The buzzards (a mixed group of Turkey Vultures and Black Vultures) have stripped all of the small branches off leaving only the right size branches for them to perch on. Today, the fledgling buzzards were perched across the river. They are still so young that their wing strength only allows them to fly short distances. They perch in one tight group for safety and comfort. The adult buzzards feed and care for them as one big family. The adult buzzards teach the fledglings how to fly, search for food, choose a perch, how to get along with each other, and how to live in a real world. The Black Vultures can't smell dead animals so they follow the Turkey Vultures (who can smell quite well) to the carrion. Buzzards form relationships!
My self care requires I live in the - right now - world instead of the 64 years I was locked in the abyss of silence caused by CSA age 4. I search for clues as to how to improve my self care from a variety of sources and environments. At the river, I search for creatures. I can learn from them also. Forming relationships is hard for me so watching the fledgling buzzards learning how to form healthy relationships was enlightening.
I desperately need to overcome feeling selfish whenever I do even the least bit of self care. I have been told my entire life that I am to be the giver and not the receiver. And to even hint that I have a need was considered - selfish.
The buzzards fulfill their needs without being shamed as being selfish.
Why can't I?
The river has become a haven for me and is a major environment in which I learn and practice my self care.
So, today, I went to the river.
I sat under the buzzard tree.
There are two buzzard trees at the river. One on each side. Both are dead cottonwood trees. The buzzards (a mixed group of Turkey Vultures and Black Vultures) have stripped all of the small branches off leaving only the right size branches for them to perch on. Today, the fledgling buzzards were perched across the river. They are still so young that their wing strength only allows them to fly short distances. They perch in one tight group for safety and comfort. The adult buzzards feed and care for them as one big family. The adult buzzards teach the fledglings how to fly, search for food, choose a perch, how to get along with each other, and how to live in a real world. The Black Vultures can't smell dead animals so they follow the Turkey Vultures (who can smell quite well) to the carrion. Buzzards form relationships!
My self care requires I live in the - right now - world instead of the 64 years I was locked in the abyss of silence caused by CSA age 4. I search for clues as to how to improve my self care from a variety of sources and environments. At the river, I search for creatures. I can learn from them also. Forming relationships is hard for me so watching the fledgling buzzards learning how to form healthy relationships was enlightening.
I desperately need to overcome feeling selfish whenever I do even the least bit of self care. I have been told my entire life that I am to be the giver and not the receiver. And to even hint that I have a need was considered - selfish.
The buzzards fulfill their needs without being shamed as being selfish.
Why can't I?
Fitz
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I love this, Larry!