self care - over self indulgence

[markgreyblue]

i don't really know how to express this -

i layed there in bed -

and i wanted to go go go - as my energy says -

but - then i knew - or said -

why do i do something that is bad for me?

over what is caring -

why should i accomodate the desire of jumping on my impulse to act - and do every little creative thing -

versus - taking care of the self -

this may be triggers too for some -

it quite scare me -

slowing down -

laying there and just being ok to

feel just in the mess of covers and pillow and
buddha like lol!

just all warm and stuff - and happy that - yes i will come back to MS - just not yet -

i am just not ready - i am working on the self care thing in my winter bed -

sorry cake's not done yet !

lol

but it is neat -

my body is so achey - my head feverish and sick feeling - it's been a long firkin day -

but i feel at least slower - and ok with that -

and maybei am happiest slower -

maybe i belong in the country!

i am sitting here - and typing and getting a little anxious and caught up in what i am typing
so gonna rest some

poke around

ttyl

mark