Selective memory behind closed doors ( TRIGGER )
Severe stammer
Registrant
Ive seen a link today in the news about some father who sexually abused his 2 daughters over a 10 year period he,s been jailed for 6 years , his loyal wife is standing by him saying he never did anything ?
I disclosed in Adult life I was severely abused as a child and live with a severe stammer , I remember everything that happened to me , being drowned in the bath when no one would see my loving mother calling me a stuttering little bastard , they all seen me getting beaten up ,but not that disguting act .
I written a letter to my mother in 2009 and said almost everything there is more I can add now but at the time ii was shell shocked .
She swears down she never did it and her loving fella is such a loving grand father now who would bully and beat me up calling me and humiliating me , my oldest sister is a loving gran now and she says she never raped me once and would beat me up to terrify me ,I did find out in 2009 she molested my youngest sister aswell but she wont speak up incase she upsets the apple cart ,
The man who groomed me is such a loving husband now nice house nice wife .
It happens a lot they all band together and make the victim some neurotic liar and abandon them , they are the black sheep but we are the ones left with the scars and our lives ripped to pieces , I haven't got selective memory and I know what happened behind closed doors .
I cant take 5 people to court they never thought that the little stuttering abused boy would ever speak up , ive lost everything for being honest im bitter but with time ive learnt to except how abusers get everyone on there sides .
I believe the 2 girls in this news that there father sexually abused them , there mother is calling them Devil children the one who brought them into the world , my advice to them 2 girls is leave her to live with the dirty lying child molester of a husband and father he is , I hope he has a living hell in prison , he,ll come out to a Heroes welcome , off the followers .
I pray to God the girls rebuild there lives.
I remember seeing my father when he died of cancer , I had no feelings for him no love no compassion , I didn't know the man only what he did to me as a child , I kissed his dead head and all I could say in my head thanks for bringing me into the world and buying me a scalealectric when I was 10 for xmas .
They all asked me to go his funeral and carry his coffin , I declined I was offerd money , I didn't go and I was not going to stand in a church acting as though he was the best father in the world , I hated him , when my other family members die I wont go there funerals , ive never had a close loving family .
Im not bothered who attends my funeral but one thing I am is honest and I had to sacrifice everything for having the courage to speak about what shit childhood .
Im healing im recovering ill never have trust in people again but lifes made me this way .
Just my little rant and getting things off my chest but its helping .
Have a nice day x
SS
I disclosed in Adult life I was severely abused as a child and live with a severe stammer , I remember everything that happened to me , being drowned in the bath when no one would see my loving mother calling me a stuttering little bastard , they all seen me getting beaten up ,but not that disguting act .
I written a letter to my mother in 2009 and said almost everything there is more I can add now but at the time ii was shell shocked .
She swears down she never did it and her loving fella is such a loving grand father now who would bully and beat me up calling me and humiliating me , my oldest sister is a loving gran now and she says she never raped me once and would beat me up to terrify me ,I did find out in 2009 she molested my youngest sister aswell but she wont speak up incase she upsets the apple cart ,
The man who groomed me is such a loving husband now nice house nice wife .
It happens a lot they all band together and make the victim some neurotic liar and abandon them , they are the black sheep but we are the ones left with the scars and our lives ripped to pieces , I haven't got selective memory and I know what happened behind closed doors .
I cant take 5 people to court they never thought that the little stuttering abused boy would ever speak up , ive lost everything for being honest im bitter but with time ive learnt to except how abusers get everyone on there sides .
I believe the 2 girls in this news that there father sexually abused them , there mother is calling them Devil children the one who brought them into the world , my advice to them 2 girls is leave her to live with the dirty lying child molester of a husband and father he is , I hope he has a living hell in prison , he,ll come out to a Heroes welcome , off the followers .
I pray to God the girls rebuild there lives.
I remember seeing my father when he died of cancer , I had no feelings for him no love no compassion , I didn't know the man only what he did to me as a child , I kissed his dead head and all I could say in my head thanks for bringing me into the world and buying me a scalealectric when I was 10 for xmas .
They all asked me to go his funeral and carry his coffin , I declined I was offerd money , I didn't go and I was not going to stand in a church acting as though he was the best father in the world , I hated him , when my other family members die I wont go there funerals , ive never had a close loving family .
Im not bothered who attends my funeral but one thing I am is honest and I had to sacrifice everything for having the courage to speak about what shit childhood .
Im healing im recovering ill never have trust in people again but lifes made me this way .
Just my little rant and getting things off my chest but its helping .
Have a nice day x
SS
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