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repressed920
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hello everyone i am in my 20s, bit confused in my life, 2-3 years back i found that i am porn,masturbation addicted. so i try to stop it, but not able to control myself , so i just started looking back in my sexual history and what i found:-
1. in infancy, when i was 2-3 years , one of close neighbour(still live near my home) exposes his penis and may i started to play or something like that(or may i forget), later he used me to get sexual stimulation.
2.few days later or may one year later his brother had constantly sex with me for more than many times i really don't remember how many times.
3.his another brother had sex with me , i guess my age was at that time 5 or even less (didn't remember clearly). i saw sperm for the first time.
4.then my cousin had sex with me when i came back to orginal home, this time i moved to different city (my age 7),because of father job.
5.in the new city a boy who is 6-8 years elder than me try to penetrated. only once.
A common thing about all of them when the initially started they tell me we had sex. first i do then you, but mostly when they(first they started) finish my turn never come.
after age of 9-10. all these things get stop and i get to porn and masturbation by mean of a friend, may because i shifted to new city.
As a result of all these things now i am suffering from porn,masturbation addiction not able to stop it. also try judge most people sexual. social awkwardness, not able to fight or through back answer even when it was not my mistake, having difficulty to getting girlfriend, and also character of a nice guy.
Now those who know what to do tell ???
I've already taken one stepping stone , tell all things to my parents.
ANSWER THIS QUESTION IF YOU KNOW
1. How to recover ???
2.how much time it going to take ???
3. how to manage my sexuality and regain masculinity???
4. or anything left le me know
1. in infancy, when i was 2-3 years , one of close neighbour(still live near my home) exposes his penis and may i started to play or something like that(or may i forget), later he used me to get sexual stimulation.
2.few days later or may one year later his brother had constantly sex with me for more than many times i really don't remember how many times.
3.his another brother had sex with me , i guess my age was at that time 5 or even less (didn't remember clearly). i saw sperm for the first time.
4.then my cousin had sex with me when i came back to orginal home, this time i moved to different city (my age 7),because of father job.
5.in the new city a boy who is 6-8 years elder than me try to penetrated. only once.
A common thing about all of them when the initially started they tell me we had sex. first i do then you, but mostly when they(first they started) finish my turn never come.
after age of 9-10. all these things get stop and i get to porn and masturbation by mean of a friend, may because i shifted to new city.
As a result of all these things now i am suffering from porn,masturbation addiction not able to stop it. also try judge most people sexual. social awkwardness, not able to fight or through back answer even when it was not my mistake, having difficulty to getting girlfriend, and also character of a nice guy.
Now those who know what to do tell ???
I've already taken one stepping stone , tell all things to my parents.
ANSWER THIS QUESTION IF YOU KNOW
1. How to recover ???
2.how much time it going to take ???
3. how to manage my sexuality and regain masculinity???
4. or anything left le me know
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