Scared

Scared

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Scared. So f***king scared. They're out there and I can't see them. They're still walking around and I could run into them. They're free and I'm a Goddamn prisoner of what they've done.

Don't feel safe anymore. Acting normally, laughing, joking, but I am not safe because they're somewhere, anywhere out there.

Worse than when the memories of being raped, f***ed, whatever as a child. Worse, much worse.

Got to hide, but can't fucking hide.

Need help.

Scot
 
Scot,
You aren't a child anymore. Yes, they are out there, but they can't hurt you. And less and less are they able to hurt other children with impunity. You are an example, one of the crusaders, the vanguard, who are watching them, making them be held accountable, and directing the spotlight at them for their disgusting misdeeds. You are the voice of outrage that screams that they are out there and must be watched. You and others like you are their worst nightmare. They are frightened Scot. You have no reason to fear. You are strong and on the side of the not so silent army of protestors that are dragging the perpetrators out into the open, into the harsh sunlight. You are to be feared not fearful. Peace, Andrew
 
Scot,

I am sorry for your fear, I can relate to that also. It seems I have days when all I have is fear, whether it is rational or not.

I wish I have advice more for you. I don't know what else to say.

leosha
 
Scot,

I am so sorry yu are feeling so scared, it is a terrible feeling, I have much fear as well, sometimes irrationally. BUt the only advice I can give you is to maybe try to put that fear into a positive outlet, write an article, or letter, write in journal, find support groups or volunteer to help children who are hurt. All you ca do is live in spite of the fear, and you have that strength, otherwise you wouldn't be posting here at all.

scott
 
It is true that society is gradually moving towards a more knowing and healthier view of CSA including the abuse of boys.

Perhaps we can take heart from that and so bolster the courage we need to confront our abusers in our hearts.

We need to remind ourselves that we are not children anymore and so are not vulnerable anymore in the way we were. We must also, I think, be cognizant of the fact that we can, by forcing ourselves, by not cautiously proceeding in our recovery, become retraumatized by remembering, sort of re-experiencing our abuse.

While I believe that this group is invaluable in the information and support it provides, I think there is no substitute for professional help in the recovery process, both for long-term progress and crisis intervention.

In reference to society's progress, in the state in which I live, measures are being taken to review the status of level 3 offenders and consider whether or not they should be committed for the rest of their lives.

At the very least, it looks like they will be monitored much closer than they have been.

Due to recent tragic events, it looks like majority public opinion has been pushed over the edge and people are finally seeing that steps must be taken to prevent them from re-offending.

People still seem ignorant, however, about how sexual predators come into existence. They still talk about them as if the are just born that way. And incest is still largely ignored or denied.

Until there is a clearer understanding by a majority of people concerning what CSA is, how it comes to be, and how it can effectively be prevented, progress will be slow.

And so we will find our best support in the rare safe places like these.
 
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