Scared to write this
Longislandjoe
Registrant
Hi all! I didn’t think I would have this reaction but here I am pretty scared writing this. I’m 43. I was molested by my older brother(7 years older) from 6 to about 12. He was young as well and I’m not sure if that qualifies me. I guess that’s one of the reasons I never sought that much help until recently.
We slept in his bed some nights. I was so desperate for him to like me I would do whatever he wanted. I stopped sleeping in his bed when I thought I was pregnant. I didn’t know boys couldn’t be pregnant. I was petrified. I attempted suicide at 16. Went to therapy and the abuse came up. I thought I was ‘over it’. But I went through some trauma recently and it came up again.
As I’m writing I realise how much shame I’ve been storing up. Thank you for having such a forum!
We slept in his bed some nights. I was so desperate for him to like me I would do whatever he wanted. I stopped sleeping in his bed when I thought I was pregnant. I didn’t know boys couldn’t be pregnant. I was petrified. I attempted suicide at 16. Went to therapy and the abuse came up. I thought I was ‘over it’. But I went through some trauma recently and it came up again.
As I’m writing I realise how much shame I’ve been storing up. Thank you for having such a forum!