saddled w/ sex *trigger*
melliferal
Registrant
For a time after the abuse stopped, I was sort of "obsessed", I guess you could say, with sexuality. I don't think I did any obvious "acting out", in public anyway. Of course there was the whole masturbation thing; but aside from that, the compulsion did manifest itself in the oddest ways - like visiting the city library after school once a week, and finding and reading the same section of the same book about sexual positions. Weird things like that. Almost funny, I suppose. But over time things changed drastically. I think it would be most accurate to describe myself as "asexual" anymore. "Drive"? Ain't there. I have loved women - sometimes very much. But a missing tooth in my brain's gearbox just keeps me away from sex.
As for homosexuality - I wondered about that for a while, as there was a homosexual component to some of the abuse (I suppose it's natural for a young person to wonder if there's a connection there) - but don't recall ever being actually attracted to males, so I guess I'm not homosexual.
As for homosexuality - I wondered about that for a while, as there was a homosexual component to some of the abuse (I suppose it's natural for a young person to wonder if there's a connection there) - but don't recall ever being actually attracted to males, so I guess I'm not homosexual.