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[ak]

I am tired. Don't have no energy. Tired dealing with what I have to deal with, physical, mental. But I do deal with it, and usualy try to stay positive with it. Just like everone here is dealing with what they need to, as best they need to.

Just feeling like not belong here right now. There so many different persons here in hurt. What do one more help? What do me being here make as different, good or bad? And then to see growups act like little kids. People who know others hurt, and enjoy being mean to them. Or argue, fighting here in public. That is wrong. We are growups here. I am 19 years old here. People being like two years old are two times older then me. I know people do diferent things when they are hurt, but to hurt others, isn't that what people who abuse do? This is not place to do that.

I try call a friend today. Maybe I not talk loud enough, something I have problem to do usualy, because after I say hello few time, he hang up. I don't call back, because what if he mean to hang up on me? Maybe sometime it is better to let it wait. I can do that.

I do not post so much here in open forum, not member forum, because it scare me some, and also, because there just so much pain here. I know that it is what this site is about, pain from past. But still, right now, I guess is selfish, I have enough my own, to be here feels heavy to me.

aI wish everone here well, and hope everone can get on with each other. I am not here so much, but need the break from here and chat room right now. Too much I need do, and I think it best done by myself then here.

Try to be good with youselfs and others.

andrei

 

[FLRich]

Andrei,

You do belong here at Male Suvivor. You help so many of us with your positive outlook on life, even after all you've been through. You give us hope, that we too, may one day have a positive outlook on life.

I feel ashamed that a 19 year old young man has to set grown adults straight. A teenger has to tell us how to treat each other, when each of us knows the rest of us are hurting as bad as our own selves are. This is why you belong here, Andrei. You give us hope and keep us on track.

Let us help you when you need it. You've helped us whenever we needed it, more than you will ever know. Don't let the actions of others keep you away, and don't isolate yourself when you need help the most.

Most of all don't worry about what others may think of you here, or how you handle your own problems. We're all here for the same reason, we have all been abused and we all want our lives back. We've all handled issues wrong in the past and because we're human, we will handle issues wrong in the future. We need to do it together, though. We need to love and respect each other, because at times, this is the only place on the entire planet I feel that I belong. I know others feel the same way. I feel I am among friends...brothers as some of you call us. Brothers fight and quarrel, but ultimately they love each other anyway.

Hang in there, Andrei!

 

[crisispoint]

Andrei,

One more up against the wall? Doesn't seem like much when the wall is so big and there are other people to hold it up already. But one more person means one more to take the pressure off. And it takes the pressure off yourself, too.

You belong, my friend. What you're deling with, everything, I can't even BEGIN to imagine. But we've shared our hurts, our frustrations, our goals, and it's getting easier. Grief shared is grief halved. Joy shared is joy doubled. So you share your pain, my friend. Share your joy, too. It matters.

No matter how much pain there is here, there is enough strength to hold it up. And we'll do that for you.

I love you my friend, and I want you to be well.

Scot

 

[reality2k4]

Andrei

I am sorry so much hurt was in this site on that day, this should never be, but it has happened, and I know how it hurts so many.

Maybe it serves to remind people to think of others they hurt sometimes, they should not hurt others in arguments, but it is sadly human nature to do so.

Please stay if you can, or please visit the site, as you have so much to share with others, but keep yourself safe always

take care

ste

 

[markgreyblue]

hang in there andrei - please - you are so important - you are always there for everyone -
please - this is just a bad moment -
be good to andrei - you deserve it -
m

 

[Shawn_L35]

(((((((((((((Andrei)))))))))))))))))))

How can you believe you make no difference. You called me the other night and what happened. You were upset, but I ended up falling apart. You helped me so much that night. We stayed up for hours and ended up laughing. Trying to figure out the proper way to say parrot. Parrot or Pirate????? You made me laugh. You made the hurt go away, even if it was just for a little bit. I needed somone that night to talk to so badly. And you called. Perhaps I was the selfish one, but perhaps at the same time we helped each other.

You make such a difference. I have told you that so many times. You are family to me. So is Leosha who I wait to hear from. I am worried for the both of you including everyone else who is here.

Please call me if you need me. Do not shut those who wish to help you out. Maybe you don't realize how much you need us as much as we need you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers always,

Shawn -- (Did your cat every fly?)

 

[Leosha]

Andrei,

You do what is best and safe for you. I know that you are not doing this alone, totally, and I am glad that you allow the few people in that you are. You deserve that support. I trust you will come back here as you need to and are able to, and continue to help people here, even if you don't feel you do.

Leosha