Running from memory...

[survive75]

Hey all... been AWOL for quite some time from here. Been running from a lot and staying busy and not thinking about any of this. Maybe it was good for me, but I have my doubts. Despite my attempts, my past continues to resurface time and time again no matter how hard I try to push it away. The flashbacks, the fear, the self-doubt, the acting out, the struggling for memory that is barely there but not wanting to see the few memories that I do have about it.

Anyway - I hope everyone here is well. It is good to read through the posts just to know that there is still a place that I can feel not so alone.

 

[Mike Church]

Sean welcome back. Stick around this time ok. you never know what you might pick up. One thing is for sure it will not be the flu

 

[Bill_1965]

Sean,

Emotional vacations are needed from time to time. Just like we need vacations from work to get way for that stress, but we have to go back at the beginning of the next week (or two); we need vacations from this too. The amount of vacation needed vary from person to person and situtation to situation.

Several years back, I was working 14-18 hour days, seven days a week. I was burning out and fast. About two weeks into this a rain day came and I only worked 8 hours, I was refreshed, it felt like I had a vacation. A few years before that I was working 16-20 hours a day seven days a week, this went on for months before I was allowed to take a vacation. I took a two week vacation. The day I came back I knew it wasn't enough and the next day I started a 4 week vacation. Finally I got myself refreshed. During these 6 weeks of vacation from work I did what I wanted and enjoyed. I did a lot of hunting and fishing and just walking and sitting in the woods. Vacations are necessay, from work, from the emotional load of dealing with this, from the stresses that weigh upon you.

I'm glad to see you and I hope you stick around. Your presence is always a welcome sight.

Take care and be good to yourself,
Bill

 

[theo]

sean,
it is good to see you again, my friend. i also have taken time out from the site in various ways because of the accumulation of all the crap in my life. i have now returned and am looking forward to sharing the healing journeys of my brothers.

 

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[FlyWM]

It's great to see you back Sean. It is hard having our pasts keep resurfacing, but if they don't we can't deal with it an move beyond that memory or nightmare or whatever, keep working at it, a couple of grounding techniques my therapist taught me, I will share one with you, whjen having a flashback or panic attack take your finger and hold it out a foot or two in front of your nose, then slowly bring that finger closer and focus your eyes on it, keep moving the finger forward and backward slowly, that has helped me with some of the panic and stuff, I hope it can be helpful for you.

As I said, it's great to see you back, and as Mike said, stick around for awhile.

Peace,
Scott