Role Reversal

Hi Husky.

Addiction is addiction is addiction and so many of us have suffered from the various forms this illness takes. I am a recovering addict myself and so your post moved me because I understand the feeling of vulnerability and being so alone that it feels as if nobody else exists.

Many of us finally put an end to our addictions because we are faced with "the bottom," whatever that may be for us: homelessness, loss of job and family, loss of friends, loss of self-respect. All suffering is bad but it seems to be a consistent partner in life even after the addiction is "mastered." When we are in the throes off addiction we wish someone could rescue us, only to discover the only one who can help is oneself.

It is great to hear that you are no longer gambling, and I am proud of you for that, just as I am proud of the fact that another sobriety date came and left and I am still free of the alcohol which plagued my life and helped cause me to make so many horrible, terrible choices. Sobriety is a day by day event and some days are much easier than others.

Right now my wife and I are experiencing a crisis of our own at home, one which has challenged my sobriety sorely. Our teenage daughter attempted suicide in November and has not really attended school ever since. Her stress and depression cause physical symptoms which preclude her from going to school -- her eyes become crossed, either one or both eyes, and she is effectively blind. We are meeting with the school today to try to work out a solution to salvage her education but I suspect we will end up withdrawing her and enrolling her in an online school.

The point of the story is that suffering continues even after addiction is overcome. Life continues on inexorably and is accompanied by a few joys and many sorrows. The only difference between sobriety and using, or drinking, or gambling, is that at least we do not have our addictions to make our new problems infinitely worse.

Mike
 
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